2 years and 4 months since my aunt left my life and, 5 days from now she will be back.. i'm going to cry, I know I am..im not ready to say hello so suddenly.. ive grown numb these past few days. out of pure fear, I've lost most of my appetite, lost sleep. I'm excited that im going to be in the same state as my cousins. but I have this fear eating me alive, this could all be a big Lie that shes pounding into my head.. and it could be the truth but ill believe it when I see it, I pray this isn't one of her lies, im tired of the long stressful journey.. I want all of this over I worn down... what more can I say.. I've grown numb.
I'm tired of this..
shes been gone 2 years, and every family get together was all about her and how shes "dying" in 22 million ways..
and she wants back into mine and the rest if my family's life so suddenly?
she expects me to miss her and love her after she DISRESPECTED my mom on the phone right beside me??
what she wants is attention, and when she gets back shes gonna shit talk her Ex-husband of nine years and play the "he was abusive and im the victim here" when in reality she just wanted another DICK.
its gonna take every bit of strength I have not to confront her and rip her up one side of the U.S down the other..Ive grown and matured these past 2 years and couple months, and so has my Temper, I know when I should remain calm and not freak the Hell out but, around her im not sure what to do first..
I was just starting to get used to her not being at ANY family get together. and in 5 short days she'll be back, I don't want to see her.. let alone talk to her..
ive grown numb to her childish ways.. shes just a bitch.. that's the long and short of it.
-Amber
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