it's been a while. a few days or even a week maybe. it feels as if this feeling has possessed me. the way thoughts and feelings and memories from dreams follow me when I wake up. i feel as though i am stuck on another plane of existence. balancing between two worlds neither of which i can make out or understand. i realize now, this is a feeling that has haunted me before. but it is something i must have forgotten and left behind. i don't know how to explain it or put it into words, but i will tell you that there is this persistent feeling of not belonging here. this persistent feeling of missing something. it feels as though i should be somewhere else. someone else. like there is this rope from another world, another life tugging at me. yet i am stuck here.
and for now
i guess
that is that
and that, it will be
