im sick of writing about this feeling. same thoughts same words, each time blander and blander in my mouth. i'm sick of it. this will probably be the last time i even mention it, i guess. for now. i think this chewing it and putting it through my system, throwing it up and swallowing it all over again is somehow making it worse. or maybe it's not doing anything at all and maybe that's what bothers me more.
who knows
who cares
maybe that's it.
