Maybe We Can

chapter 12 ( Cuddles )

    The day was spent with backrubs, cuddles, and sleeping. At one point when I was drifting back to sleep for about the 4th time this morning I could feel Niall kiss my forehead..but it felt different from the usual forehead kisses.

     When I finally decided to stay awake it was 2 o'clock pm. Niall was still laying with me, with his arms around me and mine around him. my head was Nuzzled into his neck. "Ni? Are you awake?" "no" "guess I'll have to wake you up then." I bite his neck lightly and he pushes me. "Okay I'm up." "good." "Why do we have to wake up? I was cozy." "Cause" "Can we please still cuddle...you're warm and its cold in here" "depends" "on what?" "On if I can get a shower" "Fine. but hurry up." "I will, don't worry."

         In the shower I make 5 new cuts on my left thigh. When I finish I throw up, then brush my teeth and everything I always do. I dress myself in black yoga pants and a big, Blue, long sleeve shirt. I stole this shirt from Niall last winter.

      I walk out and Niall smiles at me. "That's mine." "you don't miss it right? cause I think I have formed a bond with it." I say and hug myself. "Well I don't want to split you two apart...buuut.." "NIALL NO!" Niall chases me around the room. I scream and run across the beds dodging his hands. "You will not remove this shirt from my body!" I scream and fall onto his bed scurrying under it as fast as I can. Niall just looks under the bed at me. "Really?" "yes. I am keeping this shirt on...or we don't cuddle."  "Dammit. fine." He lays on my bed and I crawl out from his, staring down at him. "Stop acting creepy. Cuddle!" I roll my eyes and shuffle over to him. I get comfortable under the blankets and snuggle into him, with my head and hand on his chest. He grabs my hand and plays with the ring on my middle finger that he bought for me in 10th grade. "You still have this?" he asks examining the worn down once silver coated metal. "Yeah. Never really left it anywhere honestly." "Wow" He plays with it more and kisses the top of my head.

          We watch Supernatural till 5 AM, Niall occasionally getting something to eat and offering me some that I kindly decline. The sun seems to slowly creep across the horizon and I close the blinds. Niall walks in from the bathroom. "Really? You vampire. No wonder you're as pale as me arse" "Hey, shut it Irish boy" "Oooh, go write in your journal or something." "maybe I will."

          "Me and Niall have been cuddling basically all day..well, technically night and day. Its 5 now. He questioned me on the ring... I would never lose it. As much as I would objectify...I love my Nialler. I'm not quite sure what kind of love yet...but I know I love him. he's been my best friend for years. The only one I could count on. We are basically family at this point. Heck we're supposed to get a house together back home when this trips over. People think we're dating, or friends with benefits, but really we just love each other like family ...at least, I'm pretty sure... I really do have to tell him soon. I think he's getting suspicious..Anyways, I'll write more later. Now its time for me to sleep."

         I close my journal and snuggle into my bed, just to be joined by Nialler once again. "Sleep tight Ni Ni. love ya." "Sleep tight Rie, love ya more."