canem ♡

You'll never go

After their trip back to Istanbul to the agency, in the parking lot of the agency Sanem began to speak after the long silent way they came by.

Sanem: "You are very tired, right? ... If you want, i'll go to the agency, aah .. you are tired. I'll record everything."
Can: "Sanem ... I'm not going."
Sanem: "Tamam, I mean the same. Don't come you." She started getting out of the car before she could cry on her own. "I'll go to the agency ..." she took her bag out of the car and ran toward the door saying, "... I'll record everything, we'll talk tomorrow."
Tears are already falling down her eyes and her voice is cracking.
Can: "Sanem, I will not come tomorrow either."
Sanem: "How?"
Can: "I decided to accept Polen's offer."
This moment was even worse than passing out for Sanem, his words are echoing in her ears. Did he just said this? Is he simply giving up on her? Polen .. Traveling .. Offer ...!! This can't be true ...
Sanem: "Wh..What?"
Can: "Sanem, I'm leaving."

Sanem closed her eyes and exhaled deeply then opened her eyes and looked up for a couple of seconds with her head thrown back. Then walked quickly toward the car with her bag in her hands and opened the back door and put her bag madly. She then ran into the driver-seat door, opened it and sat inside and with her all the madness and dominance inside her she said, "Get in the car" Can was lost and didn't know what to say but his tongue finally collected words and said "Sanem what are you doing, for God's sake!" Sanem repeat but even louder and separated the words so the meaning would be more obvious to Can, "GET .. IN .. THE .. CAR!!" Sanem started the car engine and Can quickly got in the car while Sanem started to move. On their way Sanem drove really fast that the speed could be maybe 100000 m/s.

She drove only with her left arm and her right one was resting on the armrest area, not really resting 'cause all she was doing with it was clenching her fist and hitting the armrest with all her anger. Her hair was all flipped to one side exposing her neck. The sight of Sanem driving with one arm and her hair flipped like this was too sexy for Can to keep calm. All Can wanted to do was to kiss her and grab her into the tightest hug ever. Sanem didn't smile on their way not even a little bit or a really slight smile but instead she was the most mad and angry and serious person ever. Can asked her millions of times and millions of questions concerning where are they going and what is she doing. "Sanem?" "Where are we going?" "Can you stop?!" "What are you doing?" "Can you explain to me what are you doing now?" And a lot more.

Sanem didn't answer to 90% of his questions but when she answered she only said either "You'll know by yourself " or "None of your business right now" or "husshh" or "Just wait" or "You'll see" or "Tamam Can Divit wait a little bit and you'll see". After a while they arrived to Can's house.  Sanem stopped then grabbed the house's keys and got out of the car running toward the door of the house, opening it and going inside. Can went behind her, not understanding ANYTHING. "Sanem, why are we here?" he asked madly. Sanem spoke next with the loudest and the angriest of her voice.

"Are you trying to drive me crazy? 'Cause yes congratulations you succeeded! 'I love you Sanem, I'll never leave you Sanem, Tell me Sanem, Trust me Sanem, I trust you Sanem, We can solve everything together Sanem, Your heart is safe with me Sanem' Where did all these words go? TAMAM YES I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT but don't you make mistakes? Didn't I try to tell you about this shit SO MANY times but you silenced me every single time i tried to? Don't you remember these times? OKAY LET'S PRETEND THE PROBLEM IS NOT WHETHER I TOLD YOU OR NOT, I just didn't want to feel useless when i know your issue won't be solved unless Fabshit takes back his arraignment and that won't happen unless i give him the scent. Do you even know how i felt when you were in jail? Do you know what it is when your favorite person on earth is behind bars and the only thing that can free him will ruin your lives? Do you know what's even worse? It's when this person can't understand what you felt for him and decides to destroy everything and just LEAVE."

Sanem while saying what's next was pushing him really hard on his chest that makes him go backwards, she said every upcoming sentence with a harsh push. "Can Divit (push) ... You can't go (push) ... You aren't going (push) .. You'll never go." When she finished she jumped on him wrapping her legs around his waist and her hands around his back neck to be able to push his head toward hers and kiss him. They kissed a deep kiss that summed up all their love and pain at the same time. Sanem during the kiss wrapped her arms around his head even tighter to block him from retreating even though he will never. While Can was giving her support from his hands holding her waist. After the kiss, Can wanted to reassure her more, still in the same position, he said, "Sanem Aydın (a soft kiss on her lips) ... I can't go (he caressed her nose with his) ... I'm not going (he caressed her neck with his nose, also inhaling her scent) ... I'll never go. (he kissed her neck).