"My love, you shalt come from the stars and embrace me hard.
like cluster of stars your distance is ripping me apart.
You should stop and stare at me with those alluring eyes,
and then, shall take my hand and spin me twice.
My heart shall skip some...
"As the snow gradually descended and rested on the dark green tree, there came a loneliness that I've never felt before. It wasn't just the fact that i was alone in this city but also the fact that i was still unsuccessful with my task and what treacherously ripped my heart was the realisation that my ordered time was soon going to expire.
Will writing in my journal help me? maybe not but somehow it always gave me a sense of courage that i do lived another day to write in it and that the goals in my mind are clear.
To be honest a part of me really wants to complete my task and my goal but i am immensely afraid that once it is over I might not be able to find any other reason to live my life...... I don't quite like what I am nor the life I am living but with this faint hope that once i reached my task I might be able to figure who, what and why.....I am." Namjoon scribbled across his journal as he sat on his desk as he watched the white snow trickle down his room window.
He closed his journal and caped his pen as rested his chin on his palm, his sleeves rolled up as he adjusted his reading glasses, his blonde hair ruffled which made a good combination with his night suit. Not that blonde was his original hair color but living with excessively uselessly opinionated father costed him alot. His dark eyes glossy and focused on the scenery that was painted outside. Namjoon wondered if his bestfriend/roomate has woken up or not. usually Hobi was the one to wake Namjoon up but nowadays it was hard for Namjoon to blink an eye as his mind kept itself tangled among the threads of how he is supposed to go away ....
"Joon-ah!" a voice so familiar and bright called out. Namjoon turned his head around and saw Hobi standing at the door.
"Yeah?" Namjoon replied as he stood up facing Hobi.
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"That's great you are awake. Can you see to the breakfast I need to wake Ae Ra up." Hobi said.
"Oh yeah, sure. Also it's Ae Ra's first day right? She is going to be fine isn't she?" Namjoon asked, with a cautious tone.
"Oh well..... she takes a little more time to be fine around new places but it's a relief that we will be there." Hobi replied.
"Ah yeah...She is a bit different. She will be fine, hopefully. I'll check on the breakfast." Namjoon said as he got up from his desk and setting his reading glasses aside.
"Thanks, dude." Hobi chimed and hurried off to wake Ae Ra up, while Namjoon nodded in acceptance.
Namjoon could relate to how Ae Ra felt.... he had been there, sometimes being an ace could be pretty costly for oneself. Although there wasn't much that Namjoon could do to help Ae Ra as they barely spoke to each other. Ae Ra was not much of a talker especially around non-family members, nor Namjoon was the one to start the conversation. Ae Ra usually spent her whole day in her room while Namjoon had always been busy with his task. But Namjoon knew this much that people like Ae Ra who are a little too much private did not oblige him to get involve with or start a conversation.
