doctor, I miss you!

charpter 3

"are you sure you want to do it? You are almost chef of this department, you can't just leave like this" someone was really mad at Wonwoo that was about to become a chef of his department in the university hospital but that wasn't something he was interested in and his dad was really mad at him almost forcing him to stay

"I'm not going to change my mind, I've already lost a lot of things because of your dream. This isn't what I want for life and you know that!" Wonwoo for the 18838484 times is explaining to his dad and his boss that he really wants to leave "you know that I don't hate being a doctor or a surgeon but not here. I feel that here I can't help who really needs my help. I feel so useless, dad!" Wonwoo finally tells his dad what's wrong

"Is this all because of him? You can't be like that! He left you! You need to move on!" He touched on the open scar. Wonwoo knows that was his fault that he left and he can't help be feel regretful about everything, he did what he did because he thought that was the best for Mingyu. To him be happy but Wonwoo ends up someone miserable without him and he just wanted one more chance with him, to be able to do everything again and have him back to his arms. He decided to go be a volunteer doctor in Afghanistan because their people really need help and for some reason that makes his heart warmer because that was also Mingyu's dream that without him even notice became his too. He thought about every moment they spent together that are the most special ones that he will never forget no matter what and maybe that were the ones that he still remembered better because  he was actually there, he was there in physical, emotional and in person - all of him was there- not  thinking about the fucking work or college or other shit. He was there enjoying and having fun. He laughed. He smiled. He cried of laughing too much. He was truly happy but he was also responsible for this happiness end in the wrong way and the darkness win

He made a promise to himself after Mingyu was alone crying on that park everything because of Wonwoo's dad and his power sickness, but he made his mind he is not going follow his father dream but his. For that maybe he needs to leave the country and be kinda free. He remembers that his ex-boyfriend was obsessed with saving the world from the bad and he always found that absolutely perfect for him, he doesn't have him anymore but he goes to Afghanistan to follow his ex-boyfriend dream that at some point became his too. He might find comfort and peace doing this.