doctor, I miss you!

chapter 5

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, NOW!" Mingyu screams to his mates while gunshots sound from somewhere in that place, they can't see anything the smoke is so intense that they can't even breathe properly but they need to complete the mission, Mingyu wants everyone save and he only wants them out of this "WHY THE FUCK YOU STILL HERE? DIDN'T I TELL YOU TO JUST FUCKING LEAVE WITH THEM?" he is about to lose is shit he just can do something when his mates and the residents are safe, but guess what Hoshi and S.Coups are refusing let him alone there by himself, that is pushing Mingyu's nerves so badly and he rarely the occasion that he loses control

"we are not going to leave you alone here, are you stupid or something?" S.Coups says so normally that his voice tone doesn't even change from usual, that means he is sure about not leaving Mingyu down there alone "I don't give a shit about what do you think, you saved my life once and now I'm going to be here and help y-" a gunshot sounded it was like everything went in slow motion. The shot was made directly to Hoshi the one who had the keys to save those residents and Mingyu was watching everything like a slow take of a movie - more like a real one -, in a impulse he jumps in the way of the bullet not letting her hit is best friend the only one who could save them. In a milisimun of a second, the bullet hits Mingyu's stomach and he feels the blood starts running, everything gets like is a dream he feels pain and he hears someone calling him far far away. Suddenly he sees him. He smiles, he feels happiness, he wants to feel his touch, hear his sweet voice... he wants him by his side. He wants to say that he loves him or loved. More importantly, Mingyu wants to know why he left, what he did wrong, what he couldn't give to Wonwoo. It felt so real that he risks to ask him all these questions because he feels so real "Wonwoo, are you really here? Is this a dream?" silence was the only thing he gave to Mingyu "why did you do that to me? why did you leave me like that? I wasn't good enough, it was because of that?" one more time Wonwoo just stays there looking at him in silence "fuck can you tell me why? I am really that bad? I knew it that I don't deserve you, that I am just a piece of shit but you made me fucking believe that I was someone so special... so amazing. Someone that was worth it. But you destroyed that when you left me... you destroyed me... you destroyed what you created... you made me hate myself and l-love you" Wonwoo's body is going away and Mingyu's hurt again, hurts like he's going to die of pain. He's feeling like something his missing more than ever. He misses Wonwoo "I want to tell you something before y-you leave a-again" and it was like Wonwoo reacted to that sentence it was like everything went in slow motion - again - so Mingyu needs to slip that shit off so he can move on and finally get over him "you were the only person I opened my heart to, I showed the true self I trusted all my biggest secrets, I loved you more than myself. And you broke him. You broke my heart that's the reason I'll never again show him to anyone. You made me literally don't trust anyone and hate love. Everything because I loved you" and everything went black like he lost his life, lost everything the same feeling he feels since that day...