His Muse

Chapter 9- In too deep

I basically was coming to his shop everyday. I couldn't stand to be away from him. He'd text me when he got to work and then until he went home every single day.

At this point I'd started to model for a lot of photographers. I came over one day to show him the pictures from a photographer in another city I had done pictures for. These were a little scandalous, some topless and some just in bathing suits. I pulled them up on Ron's computer. I could tell he was excited to see.

As we looked through he would make little comments on the other photographers work. Some a little cocky because he thought he could do better than them.

He would say things like "I don't know if I can keep looking through these, you're doing something to me. Your body is so sexy, and you know it."

Eventually I couldn't take it anymore, I had to lean in and kiss him. I HAD to take my chance. We were so close. He had grabbed my hand and was holding it tight like he couldn't let go. I leaned in. He closed his eyes as we got closer and closer. Then, he turned his head. When I realized he had just dodged me I was so confused. I thought it's what he wanted. I asked him why. He said "We need to wait a little longer. I just can't do anything with you until you're out of high school." I looked at him in the eyes. "Believe me, you tempt me, he said, you push me past limits I didn't know anyone could. I'm falling for you emotionally. And now, we almost just had something physically. But we should wait, we have to wait. I just couldn't live with myself if something happened before then." I nodded. He grabbed me and hugged me and held me tight in his arms. His hands traced up and down my body.

I needed to find a way to kiss him before then though. I couldn't wait. He was driving me crazy. I still had the rest of the school year and all of summer. How could I survive the tension that long? Who knows how long he'll care about me when he still has a wife at home?

I couldn't resist him. The only thing I could look forward to in my life was seeing a text from him every morning and seeing him in person whenever I could. He was so addicting.

I decided I have to make something happen. Next time I'm not taking it slow and giving him time to back out. I'm going for it and I'm not holding back.