push you away.
all i can do is push you away.
each time you raise your hand
gentle, even slow
i cant help but
flinch
at the wake of your fingertips
and im sorry
youre no monster
you try to hug me
before i leave
but i turn away,
like i didnt hear a thing
your soft "hey"
falls on deaf ears
of course i can hear
but im scared of what comes next
what comes next?
maybe itll be the same
"i love you
have a good day
goodbye"
as usual
but there's the chance
"i dont,
i lied
goodbye"
im sorry for fretting
for breaking and bending
i wish i wasnt afraid to love you
but i am
so scared
so
i pushed you away
february 19th
