just my luck | changlix ☑

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felix pov

i sat there crying, looking at the white plastic stick in my hands. just then there was a knock on the door accompanied by the voice of my mother saying "are you okay sweetie?"

"y-yeah. i'm fine." i said.

"okay. well, dinner is ready." she said.

"i'll be out in a few minutes..." i said and heard her footsteps getting farther and farther away.

i was...pregnant.

and i have only had sex once. there is only one person whose child i could be carrying. seo changbin's.

it isn't like i hate him but i have only talked to him like twice and it was questions like "what was the homework for math?" and "can i borrow a pencil?". then at a party, over a month ago...we got drunk and had sex.

at least i think that is what happened. it is all kind of a blur.

i put the pregnancy test in my back pocket and went back into my room. i hid it in my nightstand drawer.

i went back to the bathroom and washed my face and put on some concealer to try and cover up that i was sobbing 5 minutes earlier.

i went and ate dinner silently with my mom. my dad works very long nights and i don't see him very much.

~the next day~

i walked into school with a melancholy expression on my face. i wore my yellow donut hoodie and put up the hood. i cried myself to sleep last night and didn't do my hair or makeup this morning. i looked like a mess.

before going to class i had the sudden urge to puke. i ran down the hallway and threw up right when i got into the stall. it felt like acid and it tasted terrible.

"are you okay?" i heard a voice ask. it was seo fucking changbin.

"i'm fine." i said and wiped my face, then washed my hands.

"are you sure?" changbin asked concerned.

"i said, i'm fine." i said sternly.

"what the fuck is your problem?" he asked.

"nothing. just get away from me." i said and pushed past him and went towards my first class.

~lunch~

"what's wrong?" jisung asked upon seeing my lifeless expression.

"i need to tell you something...but in private. let's go up on the roof." i said.

"um...okay." he said and we quickly walked up to the roof, luckily not being spotted.

"so...what is it?" he asked with a confused look plastered on his squirrel like face.

"i'm...i'm.." i said.

"come on. you can tell me anything. i won't be mad or disappointed." he said reassuringly although it didn't really work.

"remember that party you dragged me to like a month ago?" i managed to ask.

"yeah. why?" he asked.

"because when we were there i got really drunk and slept with someone. and now i'm...i'm pregnant." i said quickly, not wanting to say those words. accepting it made it feel more real.

"hey, don't cry. it's okay. i'll support you in whatever you want to do." jisung said lifting up my head.

"really?" i asked.

"of course. you're my best friend and i love you." jisung said and i hugged him tightly.

"i love you too jisung. i can't imagine not being your best friend." i said.

"but whose kid is it?" he asked.

"ch-changbin's." i said.

"he isn't that bad...calm down. maybe it can be like seungmin and hyunjin. they discovered their feelings for each other by having a kid together. of course, don't have a kid with someone just because you want to date them." jisung said making me laugh a little and stop crying.

"it was just my luck." i said.

well that was cringey...but i tried.