Radom Thoughts

Oblivious

On the phone you seem happy
Yet we hardly spoke.
You say you want to talk tomorrow night
And I instantly became excited.
Then you say we can talk about your love life and I casually throw in a joke to cover the obvious shake in my voice.
However when you mentioned that you're talking to some one,
Can you heard my heart as it shatters into a million pieces?
But still I put on a brave face and agree to a time and quickly leave by saying I need to sleep.
I can't sleep.
I'm too busy staring at the ceiling wondering,
Are all guys as oblivious as you?
Maybe you have noticed but chose to say nothing because you don't want to hurt my feelings.
My sister says our time will come
Maybe it will
But maybe it just isn't meant to be.
Oh how I wish that isn't true!
My mind runs constantly.
Maybe I should let it all go.
I could focus on other things.
Like graduation, college, and the future.
But I don't want to picture the future if it doesn't have you in it.
Next to me.
But still you have someone else right now.
And I should respect that.
I really don't want to.
But I'd do anything to keep you in my life.