The Moment I Realized 《BTS Taehyung ff》

Chapter 10 ♥

I went home with those mixed feelings. I climbed up the stairs since the elevator took more than 10 seconds to open and it was too long for me. I started walking up the stairs. When I reached their, I was shocked to see jungkook standing in front of my apartment. When he was me he smiled really big and hugged me really tightly. I was really shocked with this sudden actions. I felt his arms shaking. I even felt his heartbeat really fast against my chest. After a while I felt the  shoulder of my sweater getting wet. I pulled away from the hug and looked at his face. I swear to god I have never seen anyone this sad ever in my Intire life.

Eventually I started crying. It felt like I forgot all those times I cried the whole night because of him. I cupped his face and wiped the tears on his face. He was crying. Still crying. He has his one hand on his chest and he bit his lips really hard. He was trying not to make any noise but his eyes weren't obeying him. I knew this was serious. I held his hand and opened the doors of my apartment with my other hand. My tears weren't obeying me either. We just stayed holding hands. Crying in the silence. Our sniffs kept echoing in the stairs but that's not what mattered at the time.

As soon as opened the door, I let him inside and asked him to sit I my couch. I was wondering where my parents were. "I will bring some water for you". I started walking to the kitchen but jungkook stopped me. "Please don't go". I stopped and he let go of me. I told him to lie down and I went to bring some water. When I reached there, I saw a note on my fridge. "Dear jiyoonie, sorry we had to go on a business trip very urgently. Will be back in 2 weeks. "

Great! They aren't here so that won't ask me why we cried. Thank god. I poured some water into a glass and went to give it to jungkook. He took the glass and patted next to him, asking me to sit down. I did as he wished and stayed silent.

We both stayed without saying a word. After the silence that felt like forever, his hand reached mine. He held my hand the way I have always wanted someone to hold it. I looked at him and he took something from no where and gave it to me.

It was a book. A little bigger than my hand. I opened it. The first page had a picture of me.

It was a diary. It was a record of everything that happened between us. I was seriously very suprised to know that he had recorded every singal name he called me. He had recorded every Singal bad comment he had said to me, every singal day he made me cry, every singal road he approched me. With date and Time. I looked at him confused and he started speaking. With his still shaking voice.

"I know you will think I am cringe but honestly I have never cried infront of anyone like that. So you know the actual reason I did all those things to you? It's because of my parents. My parents has this girl planned for my marriage even since I was born. You know business people usualy do that right? I don't really have feelings for her but I was dateing her because my mom asked me to. And finally at 3rd grade I saw you. I felt something different towards you and my cousin asked me to bully you. Because that way I can eraise what I have in my heart towards you. It has been continuing forever, i know that but, the icy feeling I get when I am around you never left me. I wanted to apologize for everything I did. I love you jiyoon. I am okay even I you don't cause I don't deserve you. You deserve some one way better than me. Cause we both know I am a fool and I a-"

I cut him by keeping my index finger on his lips. I stared at his red eyes and he did the same. He took my hand on his face and held it "Jiyoon. I stayed with her, because she really loves me. My mom was later okay with me going to you. But she cried a lot when I first planned to tell you how i feel. She said she loves me a lot when it I don't. So I wanted my self to leave and go to her. I stayed that way even if my heart never listened to me. But that night before we had detention, when I reached home, she was all over our bed with another guy over her."

Anger was clearly seen from his whole face. "I asked her why and do you know what she said? She said she don't like me because I said I would like to make 'that' special after marrieage. I came here cause I can't help it anymore. I'm leaving now. Sorry for worrying you. I love you jiyoon. I know you don't but I do".

Jungkook's POV

I stood up and started walking away. But suddenly, she came running towards me and she turned me around. She hugged me really tight and I hugged her back. She cupped my cheeks. She tiptoed and planted a kiss on my cheek. "That's fine. I forgive you. I like you too jungkook. The way you were patient for all this time, the way you hold my hand, the way you never have up and still had hope, I love all those little things about you. I like you jungkook. I really do"

Tears started running down my cheeks. I lifted her up and kissed her cheek. I kept her down and hugged her really tight. "Thank you thank you thank you... you love you more jiyoon. Please don't leave me. Without you I have no reason to live. You will not leave me right?".

She nodded and we bid goodbyes. I was happier than I ever was when I got out of her house.

As soon as I reached me and soohy who is now my Ex girlfriend's house, I got a message. I took it really quick, expecting a good night message from jiyoon but it was soohy. It says "I talked to our parents and told them that we have feelings for different people and they understood us. Thanks for everything you've done for me the whole time. Good luck with jiyoon by the way. Fighting."

I felt relieved after the message. Now we ended that. Not so confusingly. I changed my cloths and stayed in a comfy position in my bed to sleep when my phone vibrated. It was a text from jiyoon.

Jiyoon: gud nite. Dream about us. I miss you
Jungkook: aweee good night. I always dream of us. Please dream of me too okay? And I miss you more jagi~. Love you

I replied and drifted to sleep