I think I finally reached the point where I accept things quickly and don't care anymore. It feels like, "Ah okay, if that's how it is then be it." and don't feel like forcing everything anymore. It feels like I don't have the energy to compete or fight against something anymore. But then, I feel anxious about why I'm stuck here. Is this the only thing I can do? Is this just how much I'm worth? Am I only an option when there's no other option?
Then, something will pop up in my mind. Like things I could do, things I want to do. However, my confidence and excitement will be shattered cuz my stupid mind gets anxious. I know I can't do those things.
This scenarios keeps repeating every day. I don't know how to feel alive again. Did I ever feel alive, anyways?
BINABASA MO ANG
Silent and liSten
Mystery / ThrillerSilent means those silent battles you've been fighting and those silent cries no one heard. While, liSten means no one is listening to those cries or rather asking someone to listen to you and hugs you when you feel like sh*t.
