The Rest Of Forever (a tyler joseph fanfic) DISCONTINUED

Chapter Five

Tyler's POV

A/N: Trigger warning for attempted suicide, read at your own discretion

I begin to follow Logan to our room but then stop when I hear voices, "-did he find out?" I hear Josh whisper in a panicked tone. Find out? Then I hear her, "No this isn't about that, I'm leaving get out of my way," she says. What's going on? I think to myself. I go back to the kitchen to wait for Logan. A few moments later she returns with a bag and quickly walks through the front door, not giving me a chance to catch up to her. "Dammit!" I yell and punch the wall beside me.
I feel a presence in the room and I turn to see Josh standing at the kitchen doorway. He looks at me with guilt? From him I would expect pity because that's what I usually receive but not this. Why is he looking at me like this? Josh speaks, "Hey Ty, uh you
okay?" My eyes drop, "What do you think Josh?" I mutter. "Sorry man, I'm just worried about you," Josh says. "I just need to be alone right now Josh," I reply. Josh sighs, "Are you sure that's the best idea?" he asks me. Why can't he leave me alone? "Yes, I'm sure can you just get out?!" I say with a raised voice. "Fine, I'm leaving. I'll check on you tomorrow," Josh says and then leaves.
It's been two hours since Josh left and there was nothing on tv to watch, and I start walking to Logan and I's room. Feeling tired I walk to the bed to take a nap. It takes me a few minutes to get comfortable due to the strange sound that I keep hearing. What is that? I think to myself, but notice the noise has stopped for a couple of minutes. I finally get comfortable and being to close my eyes. I'm about to be asleep when I hear the noise again. "Ugh!" I say to myself, I get out of the bed to find what is making the noise.
It sounds like a phone vibrating. I think when I get closer to the sound. It get louder as i walk towards our clothing drawers and I open the drawer it seems to be coming from. I see that it is Logan's phone, she must have left it. But then I notice something weirder.
Josh ♥️- 10 missed calls
Why is Josh calling her? I think, but I can't believe what I see next.
Josh ♥️ [6:34pm]- Logan, are you sure he didn't find out?
Josh ♥️ [6:37pm]- I know you're mad about Tyler, but you need to answer me
Josh ♥️ [6:39pm]- Where the hell are you? Answer me!
Josh ♥️ [6:42pm]- Come on babe, do you need me to come make you feel better? It worked last time 😏
I can't believe what I am seeing. Should I check her other messages? I decide to just stop thinking about it and try to unlock her phone. I keep trying her usual password but it isn't working. When did she change it? I wonder, but then an idea pops into my head and i type it out: 5674. The phone unlocks. I open up the messages between the two of them and my eyes widen in shock. Messages dating back to almost a year ago pop up. They've been doing this behind my back for this long? My heart drops even more than it has when I see something even worse. Nudes.
Josh ♥️ [8:53 pm]- Come on babe, just one more please
Logan 🧸 [8:55pm]- I can't, Tyler will be home soon
Josh ♥️ [8:56pm]- Please, just really quick, he'll never find out
Logan 🧸 [8:58]- God 🙄 okay fine here (pic inserted)
Hot, angry tears fall down my face. How could they do this to me? "My own best friend, and the love of my life," I utter in disbelief.
See Tyler, you're not good enough.
No, he can't be back, please no.
More tears stream down my face, I feel numb. I don't know what's happening, what am I feeling? I don't even realize that I've grabbed my pills. I can't do this again can I?
Of course you can Tyler, you couldn't do it the first time, just try again.
I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't
I can.
I pour the pills into my hand and put them in my mouth.
I eventually swallow them all

I feel weird. Am I dying? Is this finally it?
It's so hard to hear, it's all muffled. I thought I heard the front door open, but nobody else is here.
"Tyler!" It's so muffled. It's so hard to see, is someone there? I see a silhouette but who is it?
I'm falling. My vision is going in and out. Black dots surround my vision and I don't know what is happening anymore.
I feel a numb hit to the back of my head, and now everything is black.
Logan's POV
The guilt is eating me alive. I shouldn't have just left him like that. Why did I have to do that? I look over at Josh who's just sitting there looking at a blank TV. "Josh," I say, "We need to go back to his house and check on him. I feel awful,". Josh looks at me from the TV and simply nods. We get up and leave the house. Josh and I get in the car and he starts to drive. Something is wrong, I feel. Why do I feel more and more dread the closer I get?
Josh seems to feel my tension and put his hand on my thigh. "He's okay Logan," he assured me. The feeling of his hand on me brings me more guilt. This shouldn't be happening.
We finally get to the house and see Tyler's car still in the driveway. "Okay, he's still here," I whisper to myself. I walk ahead of Josh and open the front door. "Tyler!"I call out, where is he? I walk into the living room and kitchen and he's nowhere to be found. Maybe the bathroom. I walk in to a terrifying sight. I see Tyler with an almost empty bottle of pills. He's obviously had most of them. I start going towards him when he suddenly falls to the ground, hitting the back of his head on the counter.
"Tyler no!" I yell. I rush to his limp body on the ground. I feel for a pulse. It's there, but it's so weak I almost feel chills. "Josh! Call 911!" I turn and Josh nods and quickly gets his phone out. I search Tyler and see he has some blood on the back of his head. "No, Tyler," I begin to sob. "Stay with me," I plead.
I continue to sob while I hear the sound of distant sirens nearby. Hopefully they make it in time.