Esther told her followers then we went live on my phone on my account
Y/n, Esther and Jade: hey ya'll
Esthers phone came back on.
Esther: oooohhhh my phone went back on
Jade: i think imma go downstairs and watch TV
Y/n: imma make my own live. fuck you esther
She looked so shocked
Y/n: love you but seriously though i need to sort things out too
I walked to my room and set up the live stream
Y/n: hey babiesss
I was reading the comments
iiiamesther "ew fam"
Y/n: esther boo go do your live with your story time
iiiamesther "bye love you"
Y/n: love you too
*note - just saying now guys, the usernames i am about to use are made up ones. they are not based on true people!"
jasmine.cx "who would love you"
i ignored it
bhadbrittany "so pretty. i love you y/n"
Y/n: i love you too brittany. and look ya'll commenting hate, if you got nothing nice to say don't say it. suck my fucking dick
itsolivia "ugly mf"
there was more hate coming. i was used to the hate by now. i got it a lot. to be honest it made me quite upset as i had been called these names in real life too but i couldn't show it as they would continue.
litlikelola "damn she getting fat"
at this point, i was just reading the hate comments
nickiiii.xo "she needs to put some makeup on real quick"
goofygabby "she expects trippie to like her?"
annu.boogie "trust i believe, getting kinda chubby"
hate comments were flooding through. i had had enough
Y/n: bye guys i hope you have a good rest of your day, love you
i said trying to keep my tears in. i ended it and began to cry. i looked at myself in the mirror questioning my beauty. i burst out crying even more and i just went to all of our rooms and got into bed. i cried and cried into the pillow. I heard Esther walking through the corridor. I quickly wiped my tears away
Esther: where's my lip gloss ma-. oh my god! are you okay? y/n what's wrong?
Esther said hugging me.
Esther: JADE!
she screamed
Jade: coming!
Y/n: i'm done. i'm so done
Jade walked in
Jade: Y/N?! what happened?!
At this point, Esther and Jade were both hugging me trying to comfort me
Y/n: well... i'm just getting so much hate. i came on live and suddenly all these comments were coming through about the way i look. people were body shaming me. people were saying the most and you guys know how much low confidence i have. it's really bad and i hate it. i hate myself. i just-
Esther: that's it. who's ass have we gotta beat?
Jade: for real. a bitch is getting beat today
Jade said shouting over Esther
Y/n: no guys it's okay. it's my fault. i should be more confident but i just can't help it
i cried more
Jade: y/n baby. you are so beautiful. you have the most kind heart i don't understand why you are getting this hate
Esther: exactly. people only hate when they want to be you and i wouldn't blame them. you are so pretty and kind just don't let it get to you. please.
Jade: i'm still so angry though ugh
Esther: yeah if they wanna talk to y/n, they need to get through us first
Jade: innit bitches wanna start getting loud hu?
Jade screamed. Esther started jumping. I smiled. There was so much noise being made. I suddenly heard footsteps coming up the stairs. I wiped away my tears quickly. Trippie, Ski and Pump bursted into the room
Pump: aye what's going on?
Pump laughed and then looked at me
Pump: aye y/n?
This caught Trippies attention immediately.
Trippie: y/n? are you good? who done this to you? who made you upset?
Ski: whys my sis looking sad?
They all had their arms around me. I looked down
Jade: do you want me to tell them?
I nodded
Jade: y/n has been getting so much hate
Esther: and she has really low confidence in herself and it's made her feel bad about herself
Jade: and bitches will be beaten up today for calling her names
Esther: people have been saying really bad things
Jade: and y/n has had enough and she has been crying so much
Esther: they been calling her fat and ugly when she really isn't
Ski: aye don't listen to them. they just jealous as fuckkkk
he hugged me
Pump: pussy ass bitches got nothing better to do. don't listen to them y/n
he hugged me
Trippie: y/n. i just have so much to say
Esther: we better leave them
Ski: don't worry y/n
Pump: yeah you always got us
They all left and shut the door
Trippie: look at me
I had tears in my eyes. After he said this, I just began to cry even more. He wiped my tears away before he pulled me into his chest and hugged me tight.
Trippie: sh it's okay. it's okay
he calmed me down. i pulled away and he looked into my eyes. he held my hands
Trippie: look y/n. you don't need to worry about all of this hate. you are beautiful, you are kind, caring and i know i wouldn't be able to live my life without you. you mean so much to me. it doesn't matter what any irrelevant bitch gotta say to you because it isn't true. none of it is true. i think you are the most beautiful girl ever and you aren't fat. you are thick as fuckkk and they jealous. they tryna get an ass as big as yours. please don't listen to them. you are worth everything
I looked into his eyes and laughed
Y/n: michael this is why you are my favourite person ever. you have always been there for me and i couldn't thank you enough more. i'm so lucky to have you.
I hugged him and we cuddled for a bit under my covers
Trippie: don't let anyone tell you different. hopefully me taking you out tonight will get your mind off of things
Y/n: it will. thank you trippie. you are honestly the best
we cuddled more. he sang to me making me smile. i put my head on his chest listening to his heart beat. i felt safe with him. i looked at him and just smiled
Y/n: i'm lucky
Trippie pulled me closer
Trippie: so am i
I blushed. Trippie pulled out his phone and took a picture of us. I played with his dreads. He got out the instagram camera and began to record
Trippie: whoever the fuck thinks it's okay to talk to or about y/n the way you do then you are a fucking pussy ass nigga. nobody ever talks to her like that. in the end of the day, are you rich? do you live in a huge house with your best friends? are you famous? no i didn't think so. so shut the fuck up. this girl is beautiful.
he showed the camera on me. he stopped recording.
Y/n: you are so sweet. thank you
i smiled. he posted it to his story. at this point, i was happy again. damn i love this boy so much
Y/n: you are always making me smile and laugh
Trippie : that's what i'm here to do for you
he smiled and stroked my hair. i got goosebumps and went red.
Y/n: i can't wait for later
Trippie: neither! what's the time?
he got out his phone.
Trippie: it's 2
Y/n: imma start getting ready at 3. i don't know what to wear
Trippie: you will look beautiful in whatever you wear
Y/n: aw thank you but Trippie should i wear black or burgundy
Trippie : show me both of your outfits
We both got out of the bed and walked to my room. I walked in and opened the closet. I pulled out the black bodycon and the burgundy bodycon. Trippie looked at both of them.
Trippie: the burgundy one
he smiled and held it up to me
Trippie: you are gonna look beautiful
We went downstairs and spoke to everyone else. It got to 3 and I began to get ready. I showered, brushed my teeth, done my hair and makeup with help from Jade and Esther and put my dress on. I looked in the mirror and took some pictures.
Y/n: perfect
i said to myself
Esther and Jade walked in
Esther: oooooooo
Jade: oh my godddd
they both started taking snapchats of me and posted them
Y/n: thank you guys, i love you. thank you for helping me with my hair and makeup too
We done a group hug
