he didn't wait...
instead he carried on walking fast and he went to the bathroom
*WARNING OF SUICIDAL BEHAVIOUR COMING UP*
he went inside and shut the door and locked it. i heard things fall on the floor which scared me. i then heard more crying then suddenly a loud bang. i began to cry.
y/n: michael open the door
i knocked on it
michael: no y/n. it's okay. and i'm sorry for everything i've done. i'm really sorry.
he was crying.
y/n: and i accept your apology but michael please -
i began to cry even more.
michael: no
i heard more things drop on the floor then i heard a wince. i was terrified at this point.
y/n: MICHAEL PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR! PLEASE IM BEGGING. i love you it doesn't matter what it comes to. i love you.
Trippie: and i *wince* love you too
y/n: if you love me, open the door
Trippie: i can't
y/n: why
Trippie: i physically can't
i looked up and saw the spare bathroom key hanging from the top of the door. i jumped and grabbed it. i sorted out which key it was and i quickly unlocked the door. I heard trippie gasp and try and put some things away but it was too late. he looked at me and cried. i ran to him and hugged him so tight.
y/n: michael what have you been doing in here?
i looked around and saw the bathroom wall had been punched. there were pills on the floor and some blades. he scratched the back of his head. but then put his arms down and covered his wrists. i pulled his wrists back up and saw blood and cuts covering them. he looked away and i began to break down again.
y/n: w-why did you do that
he was still crying
trippie: because i love you and i don't think you can see it. i don't deserve you. i don't even deserve to be here so i might aswell just go away
y/n: don't say that. you do deserve me. it's the other way round. i don't deserve you. you do everything for me and i really appreciate you for that
i began to cry more. he wiped my tears away.
trippie: but i've hurt you y/n. why would i do such a thing just to try and loose feelings for you. that is impossible for me to anyway. sometimes i feel hurt too. but guess what, love does hurt. it's the most painful thing ever.
he stroked my hair
trippie: i love you and trust you with everything. you are the only girl i have said that too and i mean it because ever since my brother died, you have always been there for me. these past years have hurt me bad but you've always been there for me. that's why you are my girlfriend because you mean everything to me. but i don't deserve everything.
he looked down and then pulled out a blade from his pocket. i tried to take it away, i pulled really hard. but so did he. he won and put it by his wrist.
y/n: no stop it! i need you! i really do
i cried
trippie: i'm sorry y/n
he slit his wrist again and again. i kept trying to get it as tears fell down my face.
suddenly his face went pale and he fell to the floor.
y/n: TRIPPIE! OH MY GOD
*END OF SUICIDAL BEHAVIOUR*
his eyes were still slightly open. he smiled at me.
Trippie: baby, what you wishing for?
he smiled and stroked my hair. i cried in his chest.
y/n: i'm sorry trippie
i kissed him and he kissed back
trippie: no i'm sorry. i love. you mean the world to me.
he whispered
y/n: michael no please.
his eyes shut and i layed on his chest and cried. i called an ambulance straight away and i told them our address. i checked his pulse and thank god, his heart was still beating. afterwards, i immediately called ski, pump, jade and esther and i got them to come home. i put a bandage round michaels wrists and kissed him.
y/n: i'm sorry michael. i'm sorry i didn't show my love for you that much. but i love you. i love you more than anyone else.
i cried
y/n: this is all my fault
i whispered
suddenly i heard the door open and everyone ran up the stairs. they bursted into the bathroom with a shocked face. jade and esther began to get emotional and ski and pump didn't know what to do.
Ski: w-what happened?
Y/n: he was with another girl having sex, i got angry and upset and we were arguing. he explained himself but got emotional. he locked himself in the bathroom and i heard noises. i opened the door and saw this.
tears were falling down my face
Y/n: this is all my fault
pump: sh it's okay no it's not
esther: everything is gonna be fine
jade: calm down
ski: i'm sure he will be okay
y/n: but what if he's not? then what
i sobbed. a knock soon came to the door.
y/n: should be the ambulance
pump: i'll get it
pump went downstairs unlocking the door for the paramedics and they came upstairs with a stretcher. they carried him putting him onto the stretcher. i held his hand and followed them down the stairs.
y/n: can i come in the ambulance please?
paramedic: im sorry you won't be able to, but you can meet at this hospital
y/n: ugh
i was angry at this point i just put my shoes on and tried to get in
paramedic: ma'am you cannot come in the ambulance
everyone came outside.
ski: i got you y/n. let's follow the ambulance everyone
we got into the car and begun to drive. i was silent for the whole journey. when we got there, we ran into the main office and asked where to find trippie. jade was best at talking.
jade: good afternoon, we are looking for Michael White
office lady: *scrolled through names on the computer* Michael White. right that's straight along the corridor, turn left and up the stairs and its room 14
y/n: thank you
we followed the office woman's instructions and got to the place we needed to be except a doctor told us we couldn't come beyond this point.
Esther: look just let us by our-
y/n: SOMETHING REALLY BAD HAS JUST HAPPENED TO MY BOYFRIEND AND HE COULD BE DYING RIGHT NOW AND YOU WONT LET ME PAST! please
i yelled kind of making a scene
doctor: mr white?
ski: yes
doctor: please wait here for 5 minutes as we are just checking over him to see what the problem is
we sat down for five minutes waiting for the results. we all comforted eachother as we never know what the results could be. five minutes passed and a doctor came out.
doctor: results for michael white?
y/n: yes
i eagerly said
doctor: come with me
the doctor stood up leading us to a room. it was empty. she opened the door and we all sat down
doctor: so we have done a few tests on mr white and the results aren't very good
i began to cry
doctor: he has lost a lot of blood from his wrists and we don't have enough blood here for him so until we can get some more and we don't know when that will be, this could lead to death
i stood up
y/n: please take my blood. i'm ready. i'm ready now. please doctor i need this boy. you can take my blood. do whatever it takes to keep him alive
doctor: it's not that simple we have to take tests for you first
y/n: please do it today
i broke down. the doctor had sympathy for me
doctor: i suppose it wouldn't hurt that much
ski: y/n are you sure you want to do this?
y/n: yes i'm sure
esther: you are so strong
jade: well done y/n
pump: you can do this
doctor: okay follow me we just need to take a few tests then you are ready to go
y/n: bye
i smiled at the rest of them. we left the room and the woman took me to another room asking me questions. this took around an hour. doctor: okay you will now be put to sleep and some blood from you will be taken
she put a hospital patients dress on me and i laid on the bed. she injected me and i fell asleep.
