i woke up to trippies hands on my face. he gave me a big, warm, passionate kiss. a blush was left across my face.
Y/n: what was that for?
he just smiled and hugged me. i stroked his hair and he layed in my breasts
trippie: nothing
he mumbled. i felt him smile.
Y/n: mich-
he covered my mouth and kissed my neck
Esther: stop
Jade: exactly ya'll are too loud
Ski: water
Pump: esketit
Trippie stopped and looked at me.
Y/n: now tell me
i winged like a baby
Trippie: for yesterday
he looked sad
Y/n: it's okay omgggg
Trippie: i made you cry y/n
Y/n: i made you cry too
Trippie: no you didn't. i was crying coz you was crying and you crying was my fault
he said quickly looking sad
Esther: what ya'll doing today?
Ski: Me, Pump and Trippie are gonna go studio
Y/n: I was gonna get my nails done
Esther: I'll come
Jade: me too
Trippie: I don't feel like going out today
i looked at him and kissed his forehead. he smiled. i held his hand
y/n: i love you
i whispered. he smiled again and put his face in the pillow. this made me sad. i walked out of the bedroom and everyone started to get ready. i got in the shower and i just thought about me and trippie. the water hit my back. just as all these thoughts hit my mind. i love trippie so much and i hate to see him sad. i feel broken i said i love you but he didn't say it back. i sighed and washed myself. after 40 minutes, i got out and brushed my teeth. i went back to my room and got dressed. everyone else was ready as there was another shower downstairs. guess i took too long in the shower. i went into all of our rooms and saw trippie still on the bed. he was sleeping this time. i walked over to him, bent down and pecked his lips. i know he wouldn't kiss back as he was asleep but it was worth it. i held his hand
Y/n: i love you michael and it won't ever change
i got a bit emotional so i left the room. i walked downstairs.
Pump: ya'll ready?
Ski: i'll drop you guys to wherever you need to go
Y/n, Jade and Esther: thanksss
We left and Ski dropped us to the nail place.
Y/n: byeeee
we walked into the nail shop
Nail lady: hello how can i help?
she smiled
Esther: hi we booked an appointment for 3 people under esther
Nail Lady: yep go and choose your colours
Jade: thank you
Y/n and Esther: thank youuuuu
we chose our colours. i think i'm gonna get faded glitter. i picked a pink and white glitter and sat in the chair to do my nails. Esther done pink with holographic bits and Jade done white with gems. we sat down and got them done. it took around 25 minutes. jade and esthers were still being done but i finished and then took a photo of them posting them on instagram. as i went on instagram, i saw trippie had uploaded his story. i clicked on it and it was a black screen with "💔" written on it. i sighed. maybe i should go check on him.
Y/n: aye jade, esther i'm gonna leave. Trippie is upset
Jade: okay girl see you soon
Esther: ooooh your nails pretty
i smiled at them. i payed the woman.
y/n: thank you
i smiled and left. i had to get a taxi back. luckily there was one outside the nail shop.
y/n: hey is this taxi available
i bent my he
as to see a girl around my age. she was a lightskin black girl with her hair half up half down.
taxi driver: yeah
she had a new york accent
y/n: thank god
i smiled and sat in the front
taxi driver: how are you?
y/n: yeah i'm good how about you?
taxi driver: i'm good just the usuals been driving around all day. you look so familiar let me just say
y/n: you probably know me from either Trippie Redd, Ski or Lil pump
taxi driver: aye i swear you are trippie redds girlfriend
y/n: yep that's me. just going to see him right now actually
i laughed
taxi driver: hey y/n, i'm Shylah
y/n: hey Shylah!
Shylah: so where you heading to?
i gave her the adress and we began to drive
Shylah: how's your day been?
y/n: good i just got my nails done and -
Shylah: oooh your nails pretty
she said interrupting me but i didn't care. she seemed like a lit girl
y/n: thank you! yeah but i had to come back home quick coz i saw trippie was kinda sad. some shit happened the other day and we both got a bit
i paused and stopped
y/n: yeah i ain't tryna cry in front of you
Shylah: aw girl don't worry you sorted now right?
y/n: well yeah we both apologised but i feel like he doesn't know how much i love him. he is still sad
Shylah: i hope everything works out for you
y/n: you are so sweet
she carried on driving and flicked through the music.
Shylah: oooh hold on hold on hold on
she went back and played City Girls, Act up
Shylah: real ass bitch give a fuck bout a nigga
Y/n: big birkin bag hole five six figures
we carried on singing
Shylah: ayeeee
she stuck her tongue out and twerked on the seat
Y/n: aye get it girl
we laughed and she began to slow down
Shylah: well looks like we are here
Y/n: thank you so much
i payed her and gave her extra
Shylah: thank you too. it was nice meeting you. maybe see you around?
Y/n: you too. i know how about i give you my number and we go shopping or something one day
Shylah: that sounds good to me
we have eachother our numbers and waved goodbye.
Y/n: i'll text you!
i shouted
Shylah: i won't text you back
she shouted back laughing
Shylah: just joking!
i laughed and walked up to the door. i opened my bag and pulled out the key. i unlocked the door and stepped in the house. i took my shoes off but paused half way through. i texted Shylah saying hey. i just laughed at my phone then i took my shoes off, dropped my bag and went upstairs to see trippie as he wasn't down here. i heard something, it came from trippies room. it was moaning. wtf. i walked across the landing and heard voices.
trippie: oh shit
then i heard a girl
girl: fuck. we need to put some clothes on
y/n: yeah you better fucking put some clothes on
i shouted and opened the door. trippie was completely naked.
y/n: MICHAEL HOW COULD YOU?
trippie: it's not what it looks like
y/n: fucking bitch get out my house!
i went over to this girl whoever she was. she was wearing knickers and a shirt over her head but not fully on. pulled her hair and punched her.
Trippie: Y/N!
trippie tried to pull me away but she punched back and i dragged her down the stairs. i opened the door and pushed her out.
y/n: don't fucking touch my boyfriend
girl: he started it
i slammed the door and went upstairs, angry. so he started it hu? i walked into the room and trippie now had a shirt and boxers on.
y/n: WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?
Trippie: it's not wh-
y/n: WHAT WHEN YOU AND A GIRL ARE BOTH NAKED IN A BED
Trippie: let me exp-
y/n: THERES NOTHING TO EXPLAIN, I WANNA- go- and-stay-somewhere-else
i began to cry. Michael stood up and tried to hug me but i pushed him away
Y/n: NO YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WAS DOING
Trippie: i know but it's not what it looked like y/n!
I began to walk away and pack my bags. Trippie grabbed my arm
Y/n: get off of me Michael
i was so angry that this time i could get away
Y/n: we are over!
Trippie: no we aren't until i have explained everything
Y/n: THERE IS NOTHING TO EXPLAIN! THERE - IS - NOTHING - TO - EXPLAIN! I ACTUALLY LOVED YOU
Trippie: and i love you too, i was trying to -
Y/n: YOU DON'T LOVE ME MICHAEL! AND YOU KNOW WHAT?! I KNOW- i know i'm not perfect. i know i'm not as pretty as you want me to be. i know i don't have the perfect body. or the perfect hair, makeup or skin or personality. you don't have to love me michael. you can love her. if i was in your position, i would choose her too. it's okay. it's hard for people to love me. i can't even love myself. why would i love myself?
my voice became quiet at the end then i immediately broke down in front of him. he looked shocked and i knew he had so much sympathy for me. he pulled me close to him and hugged me tight
y/n: you don't have to pretend
Trippie: why would i pretend
i was still crying but he pulled away from the hug and instead, looked me in my eyes and gave me a passionate kiss. for some reason, i kissed back
Trippie:look y/n. the only reason that happened was because i tried to lose feelings for you-
tears formed in his eyes
Trippie: but i couldn't. i tried to hang around with other girls, but you were on my mind the whole time and i done it because i thought you didn't love me. i couldn't fall for anyone else because you are perfect. you might not be completely perfect to anyone else but you are so perfect to me but it only matters what i think because you are all mine and you always will be. unless you don't want to do this anymore. but y/n i know you said we are over but i want you to know that if you don't love me then i would be broken but you do you because in the end of the day, i would still walk around this whole mother fucking world with you doing everything you could have imagined because i love you.
he began to cry. tears fell down his face. he cried more than he ever had before. he walked away. i got up and dropped my bag.
y/n: oh michael wait
he didn't wait...
