1012

Change.

"Let's not do this today, please" I sighed while taking off my shoes. I just want to take a big fat nap, maybe call Alex or something.

"I asked you a god damn question!" She sneers.

Well then just ignore my simple request I guess. I could smell the booze all the way from here, of course, she was drunk. She came home earlier than usual today, which is both a good and bad thing, it worries the hell out of me when she spends the night out.

"I was at a friends house." 

"WHY?!"

"I was locked out of the house, how did you manage to open the door?" I ask curiously, did she just kick it till it opened or something? 

"With these babies" She smiles drunkenly while holding up a new pair of keys. Wait, what's going on? Is she really tryna show off the new design she got? This doesn't solve out from door issue!

"Cute right? I sent a guy this morning while you were at school to change them" She says while walking to the kitchen in a funny way.

"Why didn't you tell me? A warning text would have been nice" I say sarcastically, I swear it's like ever since Alex left she has been so careless and irresponsible.

"Did I have to?" 

"I WAS LOCKED OUT OF THE HOUSE! OBVIOUSLY, YOU HAD TO!" I yell while throwing my old keys to the ground. What the heck! She never thinks about things, I could've bee locked out for longer! What would've happened if James didn't come?!

I stormed upstairs to my room, she better not bother me for the rest of the night or I swear. I decided rather than taking a nap that I had actual shit to do. 

I decided to get started on my project that was due next week and finish up some homework. As much as I hate doing homework it always seems to me calm me down. 

I pull out the book we are supposed to be read for my research project. I hate my English teacher so fricken much ugh.

I can't help but think about how things used to be before dad died and before Alex left. Alex was the only thing holding us together after dads death.

I sigh loudly and put my hands on my face. I hate thinking about how things used to be. 

When Alex first left it was hard for me to 'forgive him', he literally chose the farthest college away from our small town in Ohio. But eventually, I understood, he wanted to get away from the pain of not only the past but the pain of seeing our mother like this. I miss him so much. 

I get up from my desk and throw myself on my bed groaning while frantically searching for my phone. I lift my pillow up and see the thing that has basically taken over my life since it was invented. 

I go straight to my favorites list and top the only contact there. It rings only twice and picks up saying "Hello" immediately in an excited voice.

"Hello? Why are you so happy, did something good happen? " I say while smiling, I feel like I haven't heard his voice in forever.

"Nope," he says while exaggerating on the p. "I am taking your call as a sign that its time to take a break from my homework, fuck yeah" He giggles.

He takes my slight laughter as a sign to continue "So what are you doing calling your amazing brother that you miss so much"

"I miss talking to you" I frown, things used to be bearable back when he was here. Now I just don't know what to do anymore.

"Hey what's wrong? Why do you sound so down?" he asks me in a concerning tone. I don't know if I should tell him or not about what happened. 

"Nothing. How's college going for you? Have you gone to any cool partiesss" I drag on in a teasing way, surprisingly he's been really focused on just school and hasn't really had fun since going to college. It's so unlike him to be so serious.

"I don't have time for that, I wanna make dad proud," he sighs 

"I know but have some fun for Pete's sake!" I sigh but continue "College is gonna fly by and your gonna look bad and regret not having a little fun," I frown.

"Hows things been at home with mom?" 

"Same way as when you were here," I lie. I don't want to stress him out by adding more to his plate.

"That's good. How's school going? Made any new friends?"

"Nope, but apparently I have a locker buddy. I was so excited about my new locker too!" I say lightly continuing his attempt to lighten the conversation. 

"Really? Has the school really gotten that overpopulated?" I hear a loud bump followed by a loud "ALEX! MAN DOWN!"

Alex laughs loud while yelling back "HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO FALL IN THE SHOWER SO OFTEN?!" 

I make a confused face at my phone, so I am guessing this is not the first time this mysterious person has fallen in the shower. How can one be so clumsy? I mean I'm quite clumsy myself but not that bad.

I chuckle, "I see your roommate is quite nice" 

He laughs in response, "Well I hope everything continues to go well for you. I have to finish my paper that's due tomorrow, good luck with your locker buddy! BYE LOVE YOU!" he finishes off yelling.

"Bye I love you too," I smile and hang up. Although it was a short phone call, I feel so much better. I really hope he starts enjoying himself more rather than sitting in his dorm all day doing work. 

I yawn and stretch my arms realizing how tired I am, it really has been a long day. I throw my phone on my bed and begin to put away all my things back into my bookbag.

I walk over to the dirty side of my room where my laundry bucket is overflowing, where my pajama drawer is also located. I decide on just a simple oversized black T-shirt today. 

As much as I wanna be one of those girls who wear stylish Pajamas, I am just too lazy. Oversized T-shirts are comfy and easy to wash, so in my world: Perfection.

I hear my phone go off on my bed, I immediately run to it hoping Its an email back from my teacher regarding my homework. 

I'm picking u up tmmr morning, be ready ;)

I smile at her style of texting and send back my overused "Okay", I am the worst texter ever. I swear, like in this day and age as a teenager you would think I would be texting left and right. But sadly, I never know how to respond to anything.

I put my phone down and lay down, taking forever to get truly comfortable. I stare at the ceiling lost in my thoughts, night time is the best time to think.

I change position one last time and sigh,

Why did things have to change so fast?

A/N:

Sorry, I took forever to update, school literally punched me in the face.