Torn (One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter 13

Kristi's POV

The next few months the same thing happened. Lou would just stare. I would be with Damaris. I would drift away from class, the substitute would yell at me, and I would see Lou staring again. Repeat. I stopped going to Friday lunch because I couldn't see Louis. My life can't be normal with him. Instead of lunch I hang with Finn. We have that kind of relationship everyone wants. When we walk together in the halls people aw. PDA is our thing. Single girls are jealous of me. Actually, even girls in relationships are jealous of me. My boyfriend is a hunk, he can play guitar, he can sing, he's romantic, he loves animals, he is good with kids, he can cook, and he listens. He is every girls dream man, but for some reason I'm not happy. Finn means so much to me but for some reason I just feel like a barbie. I feel like I have to be perfect and we have to do things perfectly and most importantly we have to do them in front of people. I just don't like it. I like relationships where we eat chinese and stay in. We play video games, watch our favorite movies on repeat, give each other surprises, and make each other laugh. With Finn, I just feel like another girl. I feel like he can just pluck another girl up and replace me with no emotions, but I know he loves me. He tells me all the time. I don't know. I have the perfect relationship, I just feel like I don't fit in the relationship, if that makes sense. I smiled at Finn as he sat down at our table with my favorite ice cream. Other girls were staring, smiling like idiots. "Thanks babe." I said as a took a bite. "No problem." We sat in silence for a while till he broke the silence. "You okay?" He said taking my hands. "Yeah I'm okay." I lied. "No your not." He could tell I was lying. "Is it Louis?" He said. "What?" I asked. "Is he bothering you? I told him to stop bothering you. I told him-" I cut him off. "Lou has done nothing. Louis doing nothing is what is making me go bonkers. What did you say to him? You told him not to bother me? He has never bothered me. Are you the reason he's not talking to me? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?" The more I spoke the angrier I got. People were staring, this time in curiosity, not because they thought we were 'a cute couple.' "I told him not to talk to you anymore. I knew if you guys were together I would lose you. I would lose you either to him or to death because he seems to make you do a lot of things to yourself and I-" I cut him off again. "You're the reason. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. My own boyfriend is the fucking reason my life is crumbling around me. The reason I only hang out with two people. The fucking reason I hate my life." I said. I stood up and started to pace. "Babe." He stood up coming closer to me. "Get the fuck away from me. I don't want to be with you. I don't want to be with you anymore. You are a dick. You're a fucking dick! You had no right to tell my bestfriend to stop talking to me! You had no fucking right okay! No fucking right!" He backed away from me. "Cmon, we can get over this. I can't lose you over this. This is retarded. Just sit down and eat ice cream with me. Cmon, stop making a fuss." I looked at him. "A fuss? I think I deserve to make a fucking fuss because you messed with a part of my life you shouldn't have messed with! I'm breaking up with you. I don't want to be with a dickhead like you! Get the fuck away form me. Don't call me, don't text me, don't try to get in touch with me at all. Just stay away, forever. Stay the fuck away forever. I don't ever want to see you again. Never again!" I screamed. I ran out of the ice cream shop. I just kept running. I wasn't sure where, I was just really running aimlessly. Turning down random streets until I found my self in front of a familiar place. Louis' house. I guess I was subconsciously running here. I didn't mean to, it just sort of happened. I walked in the building and headed for Lou's flat. I finally came across it and knocked on the door. Harry opened the door. I could see Amber on the couch."Kristi?" He said. "Kristi?" Amber said immediately after him turning her head towards the door. "Yeah, wheres Lou." I asked even though it sounded more like a statement. Harry let me in. "Wheres Lou?" I said again. "Uhm, Why? You guys aren't talking." Harry said. "Harry this isn't how it's supposed to go. I'm supposed to knock on the door and Louis answers and I kiss him. But the first part was ruined so instead I ask you where he is and you tell me and I run there and he sees me and we have a romantic chat about how we love each other and then we have a long passionate kiss. The we live happily ever after because I care about Lou. I care about Lou more than anything. He is my world okay. Without him my life is dull and I wish I saw that earlier but I didn't. I thought he just didn't want to talk to me but it was my dick boyfriends fault and I messed everything up and now I'm trying to fix it. I need to see him so I can tell him that I love him and want him. No I need him okay. I need Louis! Now, Can you please tell me where he is so I can go get him. I can get him before I lose him. So I can get him before I lose him again, because I can't afford to lose him again. I just can't." Right then and there, I broke down. Tears were streaming down my face, more than ever before. "Can you please?" I said. "Uhm, Kristi." Harry said while pointing behind. I turned around and there stood Louis. "You want me?" He said. "More than anything in the world." I said as I ran up and kissed him.