Torn (One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter 11 Part 1

Kristi's POV

My cheek was still stinging from the slap as Gia stormed out of the restaurant. I tear streamed down my face and many others after that one. I was honestly scared of Gia. I know she can hurt me. I ran off to the bathroom and locked the door. I didn't want to talk to anyone. "Kristi! Let me in. C'mon." Melissa screamed as she pounded on the door. "Go away. I want to be alone." I yelled as I started wiping my tears with toilet paper. I felt my whole world crumbling around me. Louis probably hates me. I made him and his girlfriend split up. Gia definitely hates me. I have to explain what just happened to Finn. I don't know what to do. I sat down on the bathroom floor and buried my face in my hands. There was another knock at the door. "Go away. Please. I want to be alone." I heard them picking the lock. Finn walked into the bathroom and sat down next to me. "Hey." He said. I didn't even look at him. I would break down if I did. "Will you look at me?" He said. He turned my head and lifted my head."Are you okay? Please just say something." I looked into his eyes and I could see the terror in his face. He was honestly worried about me. I felt a tear stream down my face. "Oh, Kristi." He said as he pulled me into a hug. He rocked me back and forth and I was bawling now. "I can explain." I said while still in the hug. "Sh, You don't need to. I know nothing happened. I know that you are with me and not Louis. I understand. Want to go home now?" He said as he let go of me. I just nodded my head. I walked out of the bathroom and everyone was staring at me. No one said anything. They just stared, like I was some kind of animal. Nearly half of the people at the party were gone. I got into Finn's car. The whole car ride was silent. I hated it because it just made me think. I just wanted to stop thinking about everything. We finally got to the flat. "Do you want me to stay?" Finn said before I got out of the car. "No. I just want to sleep. Thanks for the ride." I said as I got out of the car. I walked up stairs and walked into the flat. Standing in front of me was Louis. Well, he was actually pacing."Kristi." He ran up and hugged me. I didn't hug him back. I wanted to know what the fuck was going on. "What the fuck Lou? I got slapped in the face back there and I was called a lot of things. Where were you? Why the hell did you let her attack me? You said everything would be okay. You lied. Everyone thinks I'm a slut because they think I stole you. I didn't do anything. I did nothing at all to deserve this!" My voice was shaking. Lou didn't say anything, he was just staring at me. "Say something! God dammit say something!" I screamed at him. My makeup was running now. "I-I'm sorry. I didn't know that she did those things. I didn't know. I'm sorry.." He said as a tear was in his eye. "Explain. Explain what the fuck happened. Explain why everyone hates me!" I was so angry. My fists were clenched and my cheeks were red and soaked with tears."She made me choose. She made me choose between her and you. I chose you Kristi. I want you Kristi." Everything just changed. He wants me. I stared at him in shock. "I want you Kristi. No, I don't want you. I need you. I need to hear you speak everyday. I need to see that smile of yours to make my day complete. I need to hear your laugh and I need to hear you say my name. I need you to live. You are everything I need. You are everything I could ever need Kristi. So, I don't want you, I need you Kristi. I need you to live. Without you, I would be nothing." Louis was walking closer to me. All I ever wanted to hear him say was what he just said. That is all I ever wanted. Why did he choose now? Now I have a guy that genuinely cares about me. I was his first choice, not his second. Lou was right in front of me now. Our noses were almost touching. "I have a boyfriend Lou. I wasn't his second choice, I was his first." I can't believe I just said that. Louis whole expression changed. He looked like he had died. "Lou, you don't know how long I have wanted you to say that. I have loved you from the beginning. You saw me as a friend. Now that I have a boyfriend you notice me? No. You can't just take me away. I have a life away form you Lou. I don't revolve around you. Gia did, I don't. You are all I ever wanted Lou, but now I have something else. I have someone else who changed my point of view." I can't believe I had the courage to say that. "I love you Louis. I do. But I can't love you right now. Not today." I said. Lou was frozen. "Will you say something?" Lou was fighting back the tears. "I think I should go." Lou said."That's it? I just poured my heart out to you." Lou was walking towards the door."Lou. Louis. Don't leave. Please stay. I want us to still be friends. Louis. Don't leave me. You are my bestfriend, you can't leave." I ran up and grabbed Lou's shoulder. "Get off me!" He screamed. I immediately pulled away. "You don't want me Kristi. You don't want me. I am going to go now. I'm not wanted here." He said as he left the flat. I stood there, alone in my flat. "I just lost my bestfriend." I said out loud into the silence. I dropped to the floor and started to cry.