|| - More Than Words - || - Maylor Fanfic - Series - ||

- Chapter 6 : " I Cant Breathe Without Your Love " -

- Rogers Perspective -

When i walked back in, Brians eyes were watering and his face was a flushing red. I had got rid of all of the bad things in my home - i had one last chug of vodka, and one more bit of cocaine before. Feeling like an addict, i held my breath slightly, in case Brian could smell my smokey breath. I sat on his lap and put my hand on his heart, feeling it beat on my palm. 

He just looked at me with sad, lost eyes, his arms around my midriff. I saw his hopeless eyes narrow when he looked at my lower face. Starting to sweat, i froze up, letting him investigate me with his jet black pupils.

" You Snorted Cocaine Before You Binned It, Didn't You..? " he sighed in a murky voice, looking at my shaking hands.

I shook my head, lying.

He then ran his bony, long finger across my nose, wiping off tiny ashes of the very thing. I gasped quietly in guilt. He drained it against his finger and thumb, looking at me, but not in anger, in sadness. I felt awful, i wanted to have a normal relationship, but i couldnt being an addict, like im slowly becoming.

He started to cry, covering his face with his arm. I tried to touch his quaking hand softly, but he swatted it away, it almost hurting. 

Over tears, he started to talk. 

" Why Cant You Just Tell The Truth?! " he wailed in his depressed tone. I shook my head, my own eyes starting to water. I held his arm, tugging at it gently. " I - I - Cant Help..It! " I shouted gently. He took his palms from his face, looking at me with worried eyes.

" You Think When I'M Not Around, You Can Abuse Yourself And Put Yourself In Danger!? "

" No! " I silently screamed.

" Im Doing This For YOU! I Dont Want You To Be Upset, I Want To Upset Myself Because I DESERVE IT! I Deserve It For Ruining Your Life With My Stupidity..And My Selfishness..You Dont Deserve This, Brian! "

He started to kiss me, tears running from his face to mine, his lips took off mine after i pushed him off. His eyes widened in horror, and he held his hands out towards me, shouting now inmy face.

" DONT YOU REALISE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU!? YOU HAVEN'T RUINED MY LIFE - YOUVE CHANGED IT! YOU ARE RUINING YOUR OWN LIFE WITH YOUR OWN SELFISHNESS TOWARDS YOURSELF! " 

He poked his finger strongly at my chest where my heart was thumping loudly. It hurt quite bad, but i didnt flinch, nor reply. I had lost all my strength, and i couldnt bare to agrue anymore. I started to scream in tears into my palms, and them i felt an arm wrap around my back. My voice hushed, and i let the arms hold me close. I suddenly felt safe.

" I - I - Im..Sorry, Bri. " i whimpered, muffled. " I Dont Want To Argue Anymore..I Want To Love You Again - Please Tell Me You Still Love Me - I Cant Breathe Without Your Love... "

i wrapped my quaking arms around him, and watched him start to smile gently. He pulled me up so my burning face could see him. 

He smacked his lips around mine, holding my cheeks. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned into him. I started to cry some happy tears, and so did he. Finally we had stopped all the drama, and we could focus on being a couple again. I had never felt more safe in the arms of another person.

While we were hugging silently, i looked upstairs at that room where he had caught me looking at his desk. I just wanted to know what he was hiding now. We had cleared up all this, but there are still roots i needed to pick out - why did he get so emotional, angry and swift when he caught me? I know i keep asking the same questions, but i cant help it - you cant just know someone has a secret without wanting to know it.

- Brians Perspective -

I had that present in my pocket. It seemed that i couldnt leave it anywhere - and when Roger fell asleep in my arms, i took it out. I looked inside, clicking it open and clicking it shut, glaring in awe at the beauty inside. I knew Roger would like it - who wouldnt? I just hope Roger doesnt wake up.

Lifting him gently off my lap, i carried him stiffly to my bed where i laid the blanket over him, stroking his humid head and kissing it lightly. I strolled curiously over to my study room, where there was my telescope, and my books. The ones Roger was looking through. I shut the door sternly behind me.

I placed the present back in the locked draw, putting the key in my pocket. The stars seemed to twinkle more gentle tonight, a way that pleasured me. I took a long stare at them, the glow in my eyes lighting up like those stars.

Sometimes, i would Look Up to them and compare them to Rogers beautiful eyes, difference was his were an ocean color. I found myself wondering if i should head to Rogers house quickly to see if he really got rid of the things, but that'd be bad saying we've only just reunited, and if he realised he'd be super embarrased. I dont want this to happen again - never again - especially after i've given him the present.

- Tiny Authors Note -

( Finally, The Drama Is OVER! For Now.. ;D Dont Worry - It Wont Kick In Like ( Snap ) This. I Hope Your Enjoying My Series - I Am XD. Okay, To stop you screaming your head off about ' The Present, lets just say he's gonna give it to him the day AFTER xmas, just to suprise him. Its a nice present, trust me - very nice. )