|| - More Than Words - || - Maylor Fanfic - Series - ||

- Chapter 3 : " Dont Cry. " -

(( I ACTUALLY ALMOST CRIED WHILE WRITING THIS CHAPTER IDK WHY ))

- Rogers Perspective, 3 Weeks Later -

I know i haven't seen him in ages, but i can still hear his voice in my head, speaking those words of advice to me. Every time i do a test leading up to the proper test, i can feel his love protecting me. I think im gonna do great, like he said i was. I better visit him later on  - i hope he isn't angry that i've been gone for a while.

 After i left class, i headed off to his. I just hoped he wasn't busy. He had given me a copy of his keys, so i could let myself in. It was dark for the afternoon - but it was winter - almost Christmas, actually. I looked into the window to find no Brian inside, so maybe he was upstairs. I let myself in.

" Bri? " i called, cupping my mouth to louden myself. My voice only echoed across the walls, and there was no reply. Without a trace, I decided to look around.

When i got upstairs, there was a big balcony hovering over a sky full of amazing stars, and a telescope seated on the table in front of me. On there were many notes, ideas and a lamp hanging over them. There were also books about astrophysics, like he said he studied. Like i said, It was only a few days till christmas, and one certain note on the board caught my eye.

' BUY ROGER SPECIAL ( SPECIAL AS FUCK ) PRESENT ( FOR XMAS ) '

I couldnt help but stutter out a giggle as i read the note. I looked up at the stars, admiring them. Then, i looked at the shiny telescope again. I couldnt stop myself from taking a tiny peek into it. I got a really great close - up to the stars, watching as the clouds faded away. I must've spent a while in there, because after what seemed like 30 seconds, the door ripped open.

A hasty, tall body instantly ran over to me, snatching the telescope and all the books, and growling in fury. " What Are You Doing!? " he snarled, hurting my feelings secretly. I was fighting back tears - yes, im a wimp - i know.

" I - I - Was - J - Just..Loo - Looking..A..At Your..Your Tele - Telescope.. " i whimpered weakly, holding my arms to my chest guiltily. Brians voice softened as he quickly put the things back, but i could still feel his rage. " I Gave You The Keys To My House To Stay Over Sometimes - Not To Sneak Into My Things! " he sighed.

" S - S - Sorry.. " i mewed. I knew i was ' Hard To Stay Angry At ' - almost everything i had done bad was forgiven, but i hated that sometimes..it made me look weak, as i thought. " What Else Have You Seen? " he suddenly said with widened eyes. " What? " i lamented, quivering, and thinking - what had i missed?

He politely led me outside the room, taking me downstairs by my shoulders quickly. I could feel his eyes on something different, though. He was hiding something - but was it good or bad?!

My boyfriend opened the front door, releasing me, but turning my body to face him before i could get out. He looked in fear deep into my eyes, in a way that made me want to cry. Now i could feel my heart thumping painfully in my chest, and all i wanted to do was release all the tears in my body, but i hated embarrasing myself, so i held it in weakly.

" You Need To Go. " he said quickly, before holding my cheeks to his face and kissing me on my trembling lips. I felt a tear streak down my eye, and he wiped it with his thumb when we pulled away. I could tell he was mentally hurt, as i was, too.

More tears jerked down, and i resisted the urge to quietly scream in sadness, and hug him. I knew that was no use.

" D - Dont Cry - You'll Make Me Cry. " he softly whimpered. " But You Do Need To Leave. Now..Please - Before You Upset Me, Roger. " i started to wail quietly, and i saw his eyes well up. We looked sadly at eachother for ages, and then Brian started to cry too. He hugged me close to him, and he sobbed all over eachothers shoulders.

" W - Why - A - Are..Y..You Cry - Crying? " I wept, looking at his hazel eyes. He wiped his nose with his arm, finally catching his breath. " I Dont - L - Like S - Se - Seeing You - U - Upset..! "

" I - I - Im Sorry - I - Ill Go.. "

i ran out of the door, even if i could hear Brian screaming over his own tears. " WAIT! " he bawled, not chasing after me. I ran all the way home crying my eyes out for no reason. Probably of guilt, or just hormones of some sort. I could still hear Brians voice screaming and crying for me before it faded in the distance, and i got home.

- Brians Perspective -

I started to burst out in more tears, choking and coughing as i cupped my hands over my eyes. I felt like i had lost everything in Roger everytime i'd see his back turn on me. I shut the door with trembling, thin fingers, and sat down back upstairs at my desc, looking at that 'Special Present' i had bought. I clicked it open and close, a tear dropping on the soft, velvety fabric inside.

Burying my head in the lower of my arms and my elbows, i coughed out more tears, my throat becoming hoarse. I coughed violently before getting up, swigging some vodka down, and resting in my bed, sniffing gently and wiping my tears with the comfy pillow i laid on.

I felt awful about what i had done. I freaked out when i saw Roger in the same room as his Special Present, and scared him, forcing tears from us both.

 I didnt even get to say goodbye.

 I could've just put my arms around him and asked him to come downstairs, but i'm a bad boyfriend, and i dont deserve such a good boy as my other half. I dont know how i'm gonna be able to talk to him later on, but i cross my heart and swear to die, if i dont, i never will.