So, I have this list that I've been keeping for a little over a year of everything that I experience on a regular basis that a "normal" person would not, and I thought I'd share it with you guys. Maybe someone would be able to relate, who knows.
The List
• I have difficulty feeling empathy for others
• I have history of unstable relationships that can change drastically from intense love and idealization to disgust
• I have persistent fear of abandonment and rejection, including extreme emotional reactions to real and even perceived abandonment
• I have problems sleeping
• I have a hard time going to sleep
• I sometimes fall out of bed
• I'm sometimes scared of adults including parents and others I know
• I hide/isolate myself at times
• I get sad for "no reason"
• I'm mostly unable to complete homework while being good at doing work in school
• I downplay my own problems
• I dissociate a lot
• Its difficult to follow verbal instructions or listen to spoken lists.
• I feel so tired and drained all the time
• I get overstimulated and don't know what to do with myself
• Sometimes I have so much noise in my head that I can't turn down or force away
• People complain how loud or soft I talk and I can't explain to them that I have a hard time controlling it
• I have a really hard time making friends and keeping them
• I can almost never find something that interests me for more than a week
• I have days so bad I cannot get anything done or at least done well
• Sometimes I feel so empty for seemingly no reason
• I'm the last person to finish projects almost all the time
• When I do find a special interest, I'm made fun of for it so I lose interest
• I'm always forgetting things and coming across and uncaring
• I'm really smart, but I cant find a good way to use my talents in a way that actually makes sense
• I have to be doing something else to pay attention
• It overwhelms me when theres too many people talking
• I have wandering attention
• I have difficulty paying attention or focusing.
• I struggle to complete tasks, even ones that seem simple.
• I have a tendency to overlook details, leading to errors or incomplete work.
• I have poor organizational skills
• I have a tendency to procrastinate
• I'm constantly losing or misplacing things
• I'm constantly underestimating the time it will take me to complete something
• I frequently interrupt others or talk over them
• I have poor self-control
• I blurt out thoughts that are rude or inappropriate without thinking
• I have obsessive tendencies
• I act recklessly or spontaneously without regard for consequences
• I have trouble behaving in socially appropriate ways
• I have an overall sense of underachievement
• I don't deal well with frustration
• I'm easily stressed out
• I have trouble staying motivated
• I have low self-esteem and a sense of insecurity
• If I'm upset, if feel like I have a fever
• I sometimes just lay on the ground in the hallway
• Sometimes I forget to eat all day
• Sometimes, my dreams and real life merge together
• I have poor eye contact, compulsive behavior, impulsivity, repetitive movements, a history of self-harm, and persistently repeat words
• Intense interest in a limited number of things and problems paying attention
• Unaware of others' emotions
• Anxiety, change in voice, sensitivity to sound
• I have trouble taking turns in conversations – for example, I might like to do all the talking or find it hard to answer questions about myself
• I talk a lot about a favourite topic, but find it difficult to talk about a range of topics
• I get confused by language and take things literally – for example, I might be confused by the expression 'Pull your socks up!' and actually pull up my socks
• I have an unusual tone of voice, or use speech in an unusual way – for example, I might speak in a monotone or with an accent
•I have a very good vocabulary and talk in a formal, old-fashioned way
• I find it hard to follow a set of instructions with only a few steps.
• I have trouble reading nonverbal cues, like body language or tone of voice, to guess how someone else might be feeling – for example, I might not understand when an adult is angry based on tone of voice, or I might not be able to tell when someone is teasing me using sarcasm
• I use eye contact in an unusual way – for example, I might make less eye contact than others, or not use eye contact when I'm spoken to
• I express few emotions on my face, and am not be able to read other people's facial expressions – for example, I might not be able to tell whether someone likes me in a romantic way or not
• I use very few gestures to express myself.
• I prefer to spend time on my own, rather than with friends
• I have trouble understanding the social rules of friendship
• I have few real friends
• I have difficulty adjusting my behaviour in different social situations
• I have unusual interests or obsessions
• I have compulsive behaviour
• I have an unusual attachment to objects
• I have certain body movements I do that confuse others
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