I Will Find You

Real Friends Will Steal For You.

After my full blown breakdown that I'm not even that mad at myself for having, we are sitting in the car in silence. Trying to come up with a way to get 40 thousand dollars. I was about to turn around and take the hit. At least Max wouldn't be a what if, where is he and what could I have done differently situation. He would just be dead. I would know the ending of his life and I would finally be able to start mine. Mary, like always piped up with her high pitched bubbly voice "I know where we can get most of it." This made everyone in the car turn to her and look for more answers. "My Grandpa says he has one good loan for me. He wants me to use it for college but said that if I need a bit of it or all of it for that matter, for anything he would be more than happy to supply it to me. I guess it came in handy coming from a shallow rich family Am'i right?"  She explains. 

I didn't look back at her. I can't look back at her without crying again. I really don't want to ask that from her but at the same time it isn't for me, it isn't about me. Its about Max and saving him. "Where does he live?" I ask. "Oh nonsense I'll just call him and have him transfer it to my savings account. Pull over to the first Bank of America we run across." She says and takes out her phone, dialing what I'm guessing is her grandfather's number. With a few sentences we where 36,000 dollars richer. We still needed 4 thousand dollars. 

When I bring this up Justin pipes up with a way to gain some money. "My Uncle, he owns a...special plant farm." he says enunciating the special in the sentence. "How is it special?" Mary innocently asks. "Weed Mary. His uncle grows the devil's lettuce." Roberto answers with a roll of his eyes and a hardy laugh. Something we all need right now. "Okay does he live somewhere around here?" I ask. "No. Sorry we would have to lose a days work on driving." Justin says. There's the kicker. We left just in time to get there on time. "Let me think about it." I say.

I need to come up with another plan. One that doesn't involve Mary giving up her college fund, and not getting there a day late. I know I can't  take that much out of my father's account or my Mama's. They check their bank statements three times a day and probably more since they aren't at home. Justin doesn't have that kind of money just laying around and neither does Roberto. Mary would offer if she could magically get her Mother or Father to give he four thousand no questions asked and that sure as hell isn't going to happen. Anon isn't going to accept 36,000 and Max will be dead a second after I meet him again. Then it hits me. My dream. Anon said that I didn't follow their direction so I must have not given them the 36000. I must have tried to break Max out. How am I going to do it is the question. I pull the car over. 

Looking back at Justin and Mary and glancing at Roberto I tell them that we need to break Max out. "We can't do that. I tried to steal a Twinkies and got caught." Justin says. "Yeah Carla I'm all for saving Max but I can't you know..die." Mary adds. "Well this is the only option at this point. Anon isn't going to take 36000 they want the whole amount." I say. They look at each other and break the news. "Yeah, if we have to do that I'm out. This is getting to Murder-y" Says Justin. "Yeah I agree. Sorry Carls." Mary adds once more. "Come on guys how am I supposed to do this without ya'll?" I say my voice cracking a little bit. "No Carla." They say and they take their seat belts off and getting out of the car. "We'll get a cab and take the Gray-hound." Mary says and then they leave.

For the second time I cried. I cried so much I forgot Rob was beside me. "I'm staying and we are gonna get Max back." He says as he rubs my back. I nod and hug him. I feel so hopeless and now helpless. Maybe I should call the cops. I think but then I remember Anon is always watching somehow and Max doesn't stand a chance. I don't know how he kept himself alive so long. Anon has to be waiting for my eighteenth birthday for some reason. I have so many questions still. The biggest one right now is how in the hell am I gonna break Max out. When I tell this to Rob he remarks that we should meet with anon. Me, distracting them and then Rob going to find Max. Most likely in the hotel that they are having us meet them in. 

This isn't what I am in favor for since Anon can slit my throat at any moment while Rob is trying to find Max.. Though, I digress since this is the only plan we have so far. We stop at another motel after a days of driving accept this time its a little different since we don't have to argue on who gets the bed and who gets the couch and who wants to spend double the money so they can go be intimate with each other. Maybe this trip will be better without Mary and Justin making things harder. The bad thing is, we are kinda on our own if we need the 40k in the first place. Hopefully we won't and we will be able to break Max out. The only thing is, we need to stop Anon from trying to take Max again and the only way we can do that is by killing them. At least the most rational thing. I am willing to take the fall. We will kill Anon and then I will call the cops and tell them I killed them and hopefully they will either think I am crazy or they will let me claim self-defense. 

Either way, stuff is going to go down and I am not sure if I am ready for it but I dont' think that really matters at this point. I tell myself that is a question I should have asked myself when I first got the letter that was sat on my bed not two days before. All of this is running through my head as I fall into a dreamless sleep. A sleep to drown out the horrors I'm about to face tomorrow and especially the next day.