Everytime I Look At You, I Smile

To my first love at first sight: #3

Dear Kim Seokjin,

I have come to acknowledge that I tell my friends, I am going to be busy since I'm trying to aim for a scholarship. My best friend Nakseo came along with me to read books because he has a passion for history and he had history tests tomorrow.

I looked around and saw you studying alone in the Library as you were wearing earphones, gazing the sky. To my very eyes, I see a few cherry blossom petals falling upon as the curtains blow upon you as you stood up and open the windows. The breeze blows at your face as I am seeing a live commercial, promoting a hair shampoo or beauty products like I have always seen it in every channel. I couldn't help but admit that you look beautiful and really do captures not just my attention but my heart as I saw how dashing you looked as you hair sweeps across the wind, You had me speechless, I had nothing else to say until you caught me staring at you, I quickly averted my eyes upon you, how embarrassing that must be.

I immediately walked away as if I was grabbing a book to read and I really am. I am so sorry if I did because I couldn't help it.

After long hours of teaching Nakseo Math formulas. Nakseo had to rush home and I stayed.

As I put down my books. I realised we were the only ones in the Library. You were drooling in your sleep, It was disgusting but I hand you a handkerchief and I was the one who wrapped you around with a scarf as I wrote a note beside it. I know it's gay but you remind me of my father who takes care of my mother who fell asleep in the Library, I decided to let you keep my shawl since I have an extra at home.

I looked at you for a moment as I was about to exit from the Library, You do fit wearing my blanket scarf as I took a picture on my phone. I know you'll cringe but I saved it from my phone converted to a picture. Do not worry, you look cute.

For the rest of the days and the day forward, You kept wearing my black scarf and how you took care of it as you mean it. I smiled in awe, and couldn't help but to take pictures of you with a smile, especially I took you a picture when you were outside the gate from the library with a load of cherry blossoms petals fall upon as the breeze continues.

I'm really sorry If I didn't have the confidence to approach you to get back my scarf since you might not like someone for a guy like me, wrapping a blanket on you.

Thank you for taking good care of my scarf.

With love,

Joonie

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There was a sticky note attached on the letter which tells him to put this picture inside the purple album, he searched inside the envelope, there was a picture of him, sleeping peacefully in the library, tucked the man's scarf into a blanket. Jin laughed at himself as he starts to reminiscent the times of his high school days. He remembered the time he used to wear his scarf every day because it brought him comfort despite his worries in his life. He thought a girl from high school wrapped it for him, it was a light purple sticky note said,

"You might catch a cold, Keep it,'

The man smiled as he wrapped his scarf onto his neck, it felt fluffy and soft as he indulges himself to feel the warmth and embrace to erase his worries from his problems. Every afterschool, he would always wear the scarf when he goes to the seaside, to feel the breeze, refreshing himself from negativity to recover his mental stability. He closes his eyes and indulges himself to his scarf, like entering a bubble to keep himself away from reality. In a way, to be alone and have time for himself, to be happy in his own world.

Loneliness is something that made him stronger, he stands for himself as he kept his feet to the ground.

He wants to be happier that he never dreamed for.

Now, he is sitting in the hospital bed, reading this man's letters he saw him in his dream. He never expects Joonie to feel this way, he never knew it was a guy who denies believing in love at first sight. It ached him a little bit as he continues to read the next letter, even if it means by longing for someone to hold dear.

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Just had a surprise party 2 days ago, it was a heart-warming experience, I can't😭