Desire - ATEEZ Mingi

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Yeeun's POV

I didn't know how to feel anymore. Sad because I'd just broken up with my boyfriend of a year? Relieved that I'd escaped such a dangerous relationship? Angry that Mingi had broken his promise? Happy that I was on my way to a fresh start?

No. I didn't feel any of those emotions. I simply felt nothing, probably because I didn't know what to feel.

Mingi texted me a million apologies. He called constantly and left a message every time after I didn't pick up. I didn't listen to any of his messages, not because I was too angry or heartbroken, but because I was afraid of falling into his trap again.

Mingi had a way with words. He knew exactly what to say to get me to come running back into his arms. I refused to fall for that again. Believing in his promise was the last time I'd make that mistake.

However, I did allow myself to read a couple of his text messages. With a text, I didn't have to hear his desperate, silky smooth voice that made my walls come crashing down every time.

His texts were all practically the same thing;

I'm so so so sorry, baby.

I love you so much.

Don't leave me like this. I need you.

Baby, I know I messed up, but it won't happen again. I promise.

I snorted at that one.

Yeeun, please talk to me. We can get through this.

Baby, I'm sorry.

I love you more than anything.

He repeated the same words over and over again.

I considered blocking him, but just couldn't bring myself to do so. I don't know why, but something held me back every time. Maybe it was the hopeless possibility of things actually working out for us. Maybe a small part of me still believed that he could change and become the man he used to be.

I didn't think I'd ever understand why Mingi hurt me like he did. No matter how much I ponder on the several possibilities.

I stayed home from school the day after I broke things off. My mom completely understood.

She was shocked when I told her. I could see the disappointment in her eyes that things didn't work out between me and my "perfect boyfriend"

She, of course, asked why I ended it. And even though we'd broken up, I still found myself protecting him. I lied and told her that we'd been arguing a lot lately and that things just weren't working between us anymore.

I hoped that was the last time I'd ever have to cover for Mingi. Because we were over. He was nothing but a memory to me now.

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A/N: This book is slowly but surely coming to an end :( This chapter was so short i'm sorry..

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