The One For Me

Chapter 11

Alice's

---First week back to school----

Its the first day back to school and I was super happy but it didnt last long. I only had 2 classes with James and lunch but luckily its 3 period and 6th period. So we could go home together and such but Amber is in all my classes except Art so I have to deal with her. I said by to Maya and Gio. James walked me to class and kissed me good bye "Ill miss you" "dont be cheesy" i giggled and kissed his cheek "bye baby" and I walked into class.

I walked into class, everyone was whispering and chatting but when I walked in everyone stopped and stared at me, and of course i saw Amber the stupid bitch with a sly smirk on her face and her two minions on her sides. Emily and Sarah.

"Looks like the whore decided to show up today" "Amber shut up you've slept with more guys than anyone" "Oh really? Is that what Chris said so youd stay quite?" i froze i remembered that horrid day and I was ready to cry and scream, but how did she know? how the fuck did she know?! "I was raped you dumb whore!" i yelled at her without even realizing what I said. She just laughed "oh please darling if your gonna lie atleast make it something half real, we all know you wanted to fuck Chris, poor him having to sleep with you an poor James hes far to good for trash like you. Go starve and cut your self bitch"

When she said that for the first time in a while i cried. I cried like i did when Amber first started bullying me and when Chris came.....i ran out of the class i couldn't be in there i couldnt deal with her. Not today.

I went back home i couldn't deal with school. I went to change and sleep but I saw an old friend named blade in my bathroom. I cried and mumbled "im so sorry James im so sorry"

I dragged the metal across my wrist. 5,10,12 maybe just one more it wont hurt. 20,25,30

I stopped but pulled up my shirt and made cut in the word FAT. I am so ugly and fat and James is so perfect and im a burden to Maya and Jordan. They all deserve so much better.

I grabbed some gauze and covered my wrist to stop the bleeding faster and covered my stomach.

I slipped on a long sleeve shirt and sweats, laid down and fell into a deep sleep.

-----JAMES POV end of the day----

I waited for Alice by our usual spot but I noticed her car was gone which is super weird. I saw Maya and ran up to her.

"Have you seen Alice?"

"No...i thought she went home early"

"She did but why? she wouldnt just leave she would need a really good reason you know that"

Maya was thinking till she saw Amber walk out with Sarah and Emily following behind and it was like a light bulb going off in her head. "What the fuck did you say to Alice?!?"

"Hm? Oh nothing just that shes trash and should starve and cut or maybe even kill herself. Also that sleeping with Chris wasnt the best idea if she "loves" her Jamesy" she laughed and I ran up to her.

"HOW FUCK DARE YOU?! SHE WAS ATTACKED YOU NEED TO FUCKIN GROW UP WHORE FUCK YOU" it took every cell in me not to hit her but shes a girl so I cant.

"James relax I'll take you to your apartment to see her and Amber" she focused on her "Grow the fuck up and stop the whore games"

Maya drove me home but I told her it was best if she left me alone for now to talk to Alice.

I ran up stairs to the apartment and walked in. "Alice love? Are you here?" I heard nothing so i just checked her room and she was fast asleep i shook her a bit till I saw some gauze on her wrist and I was about to scream.

"Alice fucking wake up now!" and she just mumbled and got up. "what?!" i grabbed her wrist and pulled it towards me. "WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?!" and she just looked away. "nothing its absolutely nothing, now can you go?" I was angry and sad and just rushing with emotions. I dropped my angels wrist. A tear slipped from my eye down my cheek. Alice wiped it away but I could feel her hesitation. "why....you promised" "im sorry James but sometimes promises cant always be kept, and i just made you cry i cant fuckin be that good if i make you cry" Alice started to cry. "I love you so much Alice" my voice cracked and I couldn't help but crash my lips on hers. We kissed for what felt like forever. "Please stop this Alice please ill do anything." she tried to smile she did. "Just lay with me for now and let's fall asleep"

I did. I crawled next to my angel and kissed her till she fell asleep then I started falling asleep thinking about how ill talk about this tomorrow.

AUTHORS NOTE: OKIE SMALL CHAPTER BUT MORE TO COME PROMISE!!!