So its been a few weeks I've been to Ireland and it was amazing i loved it im in a really good place. Im happy but i still miss jonah we've seen each other but we've just said hi and that's about it . And today is going to be hard im going to Jonahs so i can give his stuff back
Kayla ; what's in the bag
Tegan : jonahs stuff
Tristan : what are u doing with it
Tegan : taking it to his because i know hes finished tour so I'll see u
Tristan : be safe
Tegan : will do
I walk out the door and i drive to his really not looking forward to it . But i knock on the door
Jonah :hi what are u doing here
Tegan : i got your stuff
Jonah : oh um i haven't packed any of your stuff
Tegan : its um....fine u have my number just message me when u have it done
Jonah : do u want to get it now
Tegan : i don't mind i don't want to make things even more Akward
Jonah : don't worry just come and it
Tegan : ok
I walk in amd i feel so akward but i go to jonahs room and i start packing all my clothes i have there
Tegan : so... how was tour
Jonah : it was really nice love seeing all the fans and performing
Tega : good
Jonah : i saw u went to Ireland and London how was that
Tegan : absolutely amazing i loved it there
Jonah : kinda jelouse
Tegan : im jelouse of u , u get to go on tour and travel mean your going to Europe and then asia and Australia
Jonah : wait why are u giving this back this was a Christmas present
It was the braclet he got me
Tegan : just anything i saw i put it in the bag
Jonah : that was a present so keep it
Tegan : no go get your money back on it or something
Jonah : i can't I got my initials Carved on it so take it
Tegan ; its got your initials on it and we aren't together anymore . So it will be wired if i kept it
Jonah : just take the god dam braclet
Tegan : jeez ok
I take it and i put it in my pocket and we stay quite for a while
Jonah : i never relised how much stuff u had here
Tegan : neither but i am done so i um guess I'll see u around
Jonah : stay for a bit
Tegan : i can't
Jonah : why
Tegan : i um.. uh
Jonah : u haven't got anything to do
Tegan : editing i have editing to do
Jonah : u can do that later
Tegan ; i don't know
Jonah : we may not be together anymore but doesn't mean we can't friends and hang out . Mean we haven't spoke like probley almost 3 months
Tegan : i think its best if i do leave because im going to be honest i still have feelings for u . And if i spend time with u its going to be harder for me to move on
Jonah : i get that but we are going to see each other because your friends with the boys and Christina .
Tegan : no I'll just see u around
Jonah : please...stay please
Tegan : are u ok
Jonah ; im fine
Tegan : are u sure
Jonah : yes im fine but if your going to go , go
Tegan ; I'll stay but tell me why your upset i can see it
Jonah : its nothing i swear
Tegan : jonah i have knowen u way to long to know when your upset just tell me
Jonah : god woman I'm fine
I nod my head and i walk out of his room and to the living room
Jonah : i need to ask something
Tegan ; ok
Jonah : the abortion how were u after it
Tegan : um i was ok
Jonah : is that it
Tegan : can we not talk about it because it was broke us up . And with your next girlfriend don't have any spontaneous moments and forget to wrap up
Jonah : well next time i need to make sure shes on the pill
Tegan : well what if the pill makes them ill
Jonah : get used to it
Tegan : just don't have any spontaneous moments
Jonah : try not to but its the girl who can't keep there hands off me
Tegan : are you insinuating that i started most of thoes moments
Jonah : yh
Tegan : that's funniest load of shit I've ever heard
Jonah : it was u who starts it
Tegan : no its u
Jonah : no
Tegan : yes your the one...uhh u know what u do
Jonah : no actually I don't
I shake my head
Jonah : come on what do i do
Tegan : im not going there
Jonah : because u know u start it
Tegan : fine u start it with kissing my neck and or when were in cars u put. Your hand on my leg going up
Jonah : what ever
Tegan : see it u
Jonah : yet again what ever
Tegan : someone's getting moody because he knows he starts it
Jonah : im not moody
Tegan : ok
I get my phone and i go on that for a while
Jonah : can u get off your phone
Tegan ; no
Jonah : please
Tegan : no your boring
Jonah : did u find me boring when we dated
Tegan : no
Jonah : then whats changed why am i boring now
Tegan : well not boring its just akward
Jonah : i don't feel that akward in fact it feels like old times . Except when u said about other girls
Tegan : ok
Jonah : are u seeing anyone
Tegan : no
Jonah : are u sure because u said that quite quickly
Tegan : i woudent date anyone if i still liked someone else
Jonah : ok
Tegan : are u seeing anyone
Jonah : no
Tegan : are u sure because u said that quickly
Jonah : haha taking my line
Tegan : your avoiding the question
Jonah ; no I'm not and im not seeing anyone . Im the same as u i still have feelings for u
Tegan : how can u like me after what i done
Jonah : feeling don't just turn off and i under stand u done what was right for u . You've had 2 miscarriages and u didn't want to have a third and i don't know how u still liked me and the boys after everything we done
Tegan : i can forgive but not forgot
Jonah : ok and just to clarify you don't think I'm boring just awkward
Tegan : yh
Jonah ; how can i make it less akward for u because i don't feel akward
Tegan : i don't know its just in the air
Jonah ; such a wirdo
Tegan : i know
Jonah : I've really missed u not being able to talk to u has been hard . Because we did speak everyday and then it all just stopped
Tegan : i did message u a lot but u never replied
Jonah : at that momment and time i still needed the space i was struggling but then the boys spoke to me and all that and i understood. And i saw u when i was on tour and all that. And i know it wasent easy for u
Tegan : hardest decision of my life I've always gone against it . But like u said I can't go through a third miscarriage because it would kill me
Jonah : yh im just sorry I wasn't there for u
Tegan : don't be sorry and its fine now lets forget about it.
Jonah : ok well i like how u have makeup on your jumper
Tegan : hey i though I'll just drop your stuff off and go back .
Jonah : ok
Tegan : i like how your junper has food on it and your still wearing it
Jonah : this morning i put all my clothes in the wash and then i had brekfast and i spilt all my food down me
Tegan : ok
Jonah : so don't make fun of me because u come out with your jumper like that
Tegan : what ever
Jonah : someones now moody
Tegan : tired
Jonah : sleep then
Tegan ; I guess I'll see u around then
Jonah : u will
We say bye and i walk and i drive home and for the rest of the night i chill
