The Make Up [Lauren Jauregui/G!P You]

Chapter 2~~ The Reminiscing/Song Writing Stage

Y/N's POV:

Flashing lights. Flickering colors of blue and dark green, circling the whole room as I take another sip of my alcoholic beverage. I look at all the sweaty bodies dancing and moving around the dance floor with no worry in the world. I honestly wish I could be this care-free. But I cant, I have too much to worry about. I chug the rest of my beverage and grimace as I feel the liquid flow down my throat, burning it slightly. I look to my left and right to see nobody. Good. I didn't bring anybody with me. I just wanted to come out here to be alone in a public place with a lot of people. It makes me feel some sort of normal. It helps me I guess, but that's just because I know myself. Some others don't, and that's why they fall into depression and things like that.

I put the glass back on the table and put my elbows on my knees, leaning my head in my hands. I stay in the stance until I feel my thoughts have been collected. I then get up, grabbing my keys off the table before making my way out the club. A couple people run into me but say sorry immediately, while I just give them a smile and a nod. I leave and nod at the bouncer, walking over to my car and getting in, turning the car on. I lock my doors and put my seatbelt on before moving the stick to reverse and pulling out my parking spot, putting it to drive and then taking off to my house. 

I pull into my driveway and turn the car off, taking my seatbelt off and getting out my car. I walk into my house and lock the door behind me, hanging my keys on the hanger. I check the time to see it's past 12, meaning it's been time for me to go asleep. I turn everything off and make sure everything is locked before walking upstairs and going in my room. The same room Lauren and I shared. I still remember the late night talks, cuddles, kisses, hand holds, everything. I remember it all.

*Flashback*

Lauren and I flop onto the bed, hurrying to get under the covers as the movie starts to play. Lauren cuddles up to me and I hold her close to me, our hands interlocking. Throughout the whole movie, we would steal kisses, and just hold each other through the whole night. When the movie ends, Lauren rolls over and straddles my hips. "You know I love you, right?" Lauren says as she takes both of my hands in hers, interlacing our fingers. "Of course, and I love you babe." I say back and she looks up from our hands, smiling at me with a look of contentment and love in her eyes. Which makes me immediately smile. 

"I have a question." She says and I sit up a bit, a smile still present on my face. "And that is?" I ask and she looks me in the eyes with a serious face, making me a little worried. "Do you think plants have feelings?" She asks and I sigh a bit in relief, looking at her with an amused smile. "I, uh, honestly don't know." I say as I think about the question. "I mean, they are alive but I don't think they have feelings." I say but she looks at me unsure.

 "But I thought everyone said 'all living things have feelings'. Which means plants have feelings too!" She says and I just chuckle at her childish antics. "Alright babe, you got me there." I say and she smiles in victory. Lauren always loves winning. If she doesn't win, she gets really upset so I just let her take this small victory. I give her a passionate kiss and she kisses back with just as much intensity, maybe even more. And for that I cant help but smile in pure bliss.

*End Of Flashback*

As I snap out of my thoughts and my head, I realize that I've already got my pajamas on and in bed with the covers on me. I look around and realize I just reminisced. Do I miss her that much? Am I really that in love with her? I mean, she seems to be into Ty, and I to be the only one holding her back from moving on and being happier. Yes, I miss her. Yes, I want to be happy with her. But she doesn't seem to feel the same way. And I think it's best to leave her and hope that Ty can make her happier than I did. I mean I could always just find somebody new and move on. Try to forget her. But what I'm worried about when I do that, I'd just end up breaking that girls heart. Because I could never love someone else, when I know in the back of my head that I had her.