The Make Up [Lauren Jauregui/G!P You]

Chapter 3~~ The Love Me Or Leave Me Stage

(Your Outfit^)

Y/N's POV:

Could you find a way to let me down slowly

A little sympathy, I hope you can show me

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely

If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

Let me down, down

Let me down, down

Let me down, Let me down, down

Let me down, down

Let me down

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely

If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

I finish the song and shut my lyric book, putting my pencil back in the make-shift pocket on the front. I put it back on my counter and look in-front of me, really fed up with feeling so down all the time. I used to always be happy and positive, but I guess that's just another thing Lauren broke and stole away from me. I just want to be happy. And I guess that holding onto Lauren is the only thing preventing me from being happy. Why cant I let her go? Why does she have such a hold on me? Why cant I just go up to her and take my heart back, returning hers and then working on piecing back mine? Why cant I just stop loving her? There's so many others out there, yet she's the only one I can think of. 

Whatever. Anyways, it's been a month since I made the song 'Why' and 'Because I Had You' and I just finished another song called 'Let Me Down Slowly'. I think if I start a singing career, I would want someone to feature on it. And I think rather Shawn Mendes or Alec Benjamin would fit perfectly with this song. I'm leaning more towards Alec though, since his voice just matches the song perfectly. Now you're probably wondering, why am I even thinking about this stuff? I'm just a dancer. And like I said, I don't have time to change my future now. But, I've been thinking about it and I have a bestfriend named Sean, who would do great at being their new choreographer if I were to leave and start a different career choice. 

The only thing holding me back is the love for the girls and the rest of the team. It would be so hard to leave them and go my own way, even if we still stay in contact, it just wouldn't be the same. But at the same time, my dream has forever been to become a singer, famous or not. I just wanted to make music to impact the world and maybe change some people's look on subjects and different topics and things. I wanted to be something. But, I guess I got what I wanted, just not the way I wanted. But, I'm in a good spot right now. And this would be the perfect time to change my career. It's basically now or never. And I want it now.

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After my pep talk, I decide today is the day I make a change in my life. Today is the day, I pursue the career I've wanted since I was 4. I love dancing and definitely have a huge passion with it, but I've been dancing-and nothing else-for 7 years, and I want a change. I call my mum and my brother and sister, telling them about my thoughts and they said they support me and that I should go for it. I thank them and hang up the call, calling up my manager. 

[Y/N-Italics]

[Y/BF-Bold]

 Y/NN? Whatcha need?

I, uh, want to change my career...

There's a couple seconds of silence before I hear a squeal on the other side of the call.

FINALLY!

I wince and pull the phone away from my ear before putting it back.

First off. Calm down. Second off. Finally? You've been waiting for me to say that?