My love; Allanah xx

Back together

On about the 27th of the 6th I went to allanahs house with my friend taagen after school and me and allanah hugged and kissed heaps outside of her house while leaving taagen to third wheel to the max (whoops!!) about thirty minutes later she asked me if I would be her girlfriend again and I've course I said yes. I went from the saddest person to the happiest person alive in the duration of about a week. I was so happy that I got my beautiful girl back and I was also thankful because I thought I was going to lose her for good. I was back to not being able to stop thinking about her and taking to her but I was scared that I would annoy her... And that was the last thing that I wanted to do. My friends got annoyed with me talking about allanah so much and I don't blame them because allanah was the centre of my conversation with 90% of my friends because I was so glad to have her back because like the saying goes 'you don't know what you've got till it's gone' well actually you know exactly what you had but you just never thought you would lose it and that is like what I thought about me and allanah, I never thought I would lose her because we were so close but then I was taken by surprise. She's is such a caring and loving person and ever since last year she has made it her priority to make sure that I am happy no matter what even if I try and push her away. I guess that's why I love her because she goes out if her way for me no matter what. Whenever I think about it I realise how fucking lucky I am to have a girlfriend like her because I know that the reality is that not many people these days have good relationships and especially at this age. We may fight a bit but almost every relationship has their ups and downs. I honestly don't know where I would be without her anymore. Sometimes I think that I would even be dead right now. She has stopped me thinking about suicide and attempting it. She has taken every worry of mine away and now I want to do the same for her because she is honestly my true love and I know it because when I'm around her I get this tingly amazing feeling in my stomach and it is the best feeling ever.