Missing pieces

12

As pov
I went and sat on the edge of the bed
" Hey it's ok you're ok "
I was trying not to cry even harder than I already was
" I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that it's my fault I'm sorry "
" This isn't your fault A I promise "
" but I "
" no stop this is my fault fully not yours "
He grabbed my hand and I leaned over and hugged him and he started to cry too. After a while he said
" I was having a panic attack or something and I took to many pills it was a complete accident "

It's Sunday night and I couldn't sleep I could only think of the what-ifs and eventually, I started to cry which turned in to me sleeping.
I woke up and there were close on the foot of the bed and Luke yelled
" you have to where that it will look sick on you "
It was a pare of riped black jeans, dark gray crop top, red flannel and my black boots I also put on jacks necklace and a shorter one that Corbyn got me for my birthday. I walked out of the room
" I was right now let's do your make up "
We decided on winged eyeliner, mascara and a light brown lipstick Luke was having to much fun
" ok come on I need to eat "
We ran down the stairs and his mom had made us breakfast.

We walked into the school and we were all laughing then some people started saying hi to the guys and so many people gave me looks
" Hey I'm going to find my class see you guys at lunch "
I went and my first class was English. I took a seat in the back and waited for class to start.
" ok so for our first assignment you'll be writing about what has changed your life now before you all groan and roll your eyes like Jay here it can be about your first heartbreak, your pet passing away or a book you read this is a way for me to learn how you write ok the time is yours"
Everyone pulled out personal computers except me and 2 other people. I stared at the lined notebook page and spun my pencil in my fingers till I decided what to write
'What has changed my life?
My life has been changed a total of 5 times now before you mark this with your red pen and say your life can only be changed once or twice not 5 times before you're 18. '
I wrote almost 15 pages it was like when I started writing I gave the thoughts in my head a way to escape and lay themselves to rest on the blue-lined paper with my pencil. I wrote so much I didn't go to the lunch room but rather the library to finish it. My phone buzzed making me jump
' where are you are you ok ?'
Popped up on my screen along with Luke's name
' yeah I'll be there in a minute '
I went to the lunchroom and saw them at a table with a bunch of people. I slowly walked over till one of them noticed me and waved me over. Lunch ended and we went on with the rest of our day.