close to you ; tofuudiger

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blue

zack remembered the first time his dad had hit him over and over.

the night of the school dance where he met liam. his head drilled into the pavement. the long cold night were he laid there, bloody and useless.

he remembered telling his mom he fell. he remembered telling liam he couldn't come over after school...or ever.

he remembered liam's blue house with the tulips in the front yard.

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"are you going to kiss me yet?"

zack's forehead was pressed against joe's as they laid facing each other in the bed.

his cheeks were slightly wet from the nightmares.

he smiled and kissed joe's lips lightly.

"why were you crying?" joe asked wiping away the tear falling down his boyfriends cheek.

"bad memories," he replied and sniffled, "blue houses and blood."

"blue houses and blood," joe repeated and turned to look at the ceiling.

"we've both been through so much, you think will make it?" zack didn't know how two abused boys could ever make a real relationship work, they were already dysfunctional.

"of course, but zack, we really should go home."

zack agreed, but he really liked the idea of running away from all his problems. living a whole new life without michael's face reminding him of the boy who ruined him.

"i know, can we leave tonight? let's adventure today!"

joe giggled. he was happy if zack was happy.

as was josh, he noticed tyler looking and feeling better, they finished there new twenty one pilots album and we so excited about it. a bunch of kids at school had bought the cd's they had been selling.

"one day our songs will be on the radio," josh said sitting in tyler bed.

"probably not," tyler laughed. he was writing his english essay on the floor.

"no i think one day we'll go on tour and see tons of people singing our songs," josh was smiling so big. the song holding on to you was playing in the background. it was one of josh's favorites.

"joshua," tyler said.

"yes?"

"we should smoke," tyler didn't make eye contact because he was nervous of joshs reaction.

josh frowned.

"um, why?"

"it's fun, and you've never gotten high before," tyler replied. he stopped writing and pulled a box out from under his bed.

the smell of marijuana filled the room as tyler opened the box to reveal a red pipe and a silver grinder and a orange pill bottle.

"tyler i don't know," josh was kind of scared.

"come on," tyler closed the box and placed it under his arm as he stood up. he took josh's hand and they both went to tyler's car.

tyler drove a little out of the city to and abandon building.

josh watched tyler pack the bowl and hold a lighter to it, watching him breathe it in, hold in, and exhale. he passed the pipe to josh who held it like it was a baby.

the sound of the lighter lighting soothed tyler.

breathe in, hold it, exhale