My Stupid Love Story

Part 10: sweet thoughts

I walked into the school powerfully the next day, looking for a certain person. Finally, I found him.

He was leaned against his locker and flirting with some girls. Typical Taehyung. I roll my eyes and stomp up to him, grabbing his arm and dragging him away from the desperate females.

He whined, "why are you doing this! Let me go back!" I shook my head "sorry buddy but I need to talk to you."

I dragged him all the way out to the front of the school and looked around paranoid. "Why are you acting like that? What's up with you..?"

I ran my hands through my hair and pursed my lips "I.. I need help." His eyebrows furrowed in confusion and concern "with what exactly..?" I sigh.

"So, you like girls right?" He nods. "Like 100% all of your life." He nods again. "Let's say out of nowhere you fell those feelings for.. a guy.. what do you do?"

He smiled and chuckled a little. "So, who's the lucky guy Jimin?" My eyes widened and I looked away "n..nobody.. it's a hypothetical question.."

he shakes his head. "Just tell me his name." I bit down on my bottom lip "do you promise you won't make fun of me?" His eyes looked gentle and kind, showing me with his facial expression that I could trust him.

"Y..Yoongi.." his face fell "Jimin.. do know how dangerous that is? He's bullied you for years!" I covered my face "I know! I don't get it either." I heard him sigh and felt his arms wrap around me, pulling me into a hug.

"Listen.. I know I have no say in your feelings but please be careful. Being with a gang leader is very dangerous and you could be killed.." his voice choked out.

I sigh back. "I doubt he likes me back anyways.. I don't have to worry about that but.. I kind of.. live at his house..?" He pulled away instantly when he heard me say that

"what? When did that happen?" I run my hand through my hair once again "well.. this guy was after me and Yoongi was just trying to protect me so he came to my house but.. the guy and his men broke in.. now that there's broken windows I have to live with him until they're fixed."

He swallowed "are you sure that's safe?" I nodded "yeah.. all he's done so far is protect me.. I feel kind of stupid for not protecting myself." He shakes his head, "no. He knows what he's doing, it's right to let him protect you. He's grown up with this stuff and he is the best one for this situation. I just want you to be careful." My arms pull him in again "thanks Tae.."

~

I was in the classroom I shared with Jisoo. She sat right next to me so I had spent lots of class time staring at her.

I looked over at her, who was focused on the teacher. The bottom of her pencil was touching her pink lip. I used to imagine kissing those lips and what it would feel like.

When her eyes focused on me something new happened. I wasn't winded by her gaze anymore.. she didn't make me nervous like she used to.

It was sad but.. I really didn't have those feelings for her anymore. "What is it?" She whispered.

I swallowed and looked away "you where right.." I whisper so quietly it wasn't audible to her ears "what..?" I sigh and my head tilts in her direction again.

"I like Yoongi.." I say quietly with tears in my eyes. She smiled in a bittersweet way, much like how she did in the café.

"Oh Jimin don't cry.. it's okay. Like whoever you like." Her hand comes up and she wipes my eyes.

"It's okay. There's nothing wrong with you." I sadly nod and sniff a little.

~

When it was break I made it up to the roof where Yoongi told me we're going every break.

The second I saw him my heart began pounding all over again. I was used to this reaction to him.

He had his back leaned against the concrete wall with his hands up to prop up his head and one leg was bent up.

One of his eyes squinted open and closed after he realized it was me "mm.. hey Jimin.." his voice said calmly.

I blushed when he said my name.. I almost always did. I slowly made my way over to him and sat next to him silently.

He opened his eyes and tilted his head to look up at me. "I'm tired.. can I lay on your lap?" I paused for way too long.

When I finally realized what just happened I swallowed the lump in my throat and nodded. He shuffled around and laid the back of his head in my lap, crossing his legs over each other and holding his torso "that's better.." he mumbled under his breath.

I was so red and I felt like I couldn't breathe. After a while of trying to calm myself down I looked at his face again, realizing he was asleep.

I bit my lip softly and my left hand slowly and quietly made its way to his hair. I slipped my fingers through the hairs and smiled unknowingly.

His hair was so soft and cute on his head. He looked peaceful and innocent when he slept. Much different from his normal scowling look.

His lips parted and my heard skipped a beat. I stared and stared at it.. his lips looked really soft and where a light pink.. like how I saw Jisoo's when I liked her.

They looked so appealing and I wanted nothing more than to just lean down and press mine to them.

How good it would feel to have his warm lips against mine and feel him love me. That was my biggest desire. That would never happen however.

He still goes out and flirts with women. Regardless of the fact that I'm straight I still like him that way but.. I doubt the same thing out happen to him.

It's too good to be true.