My Stupid Love Story

Part 13: new truth

I woke up in a zombie like state. My eyes where refusing to open and I had a pounding headache.

When I finally was able to open my eyes I realized I was hugging something.. I traced my finger around and my eyebrows pulled in when I realized it was skin.

The second I knew it was a person I felt their arms around me too. My eyes looked over their chest in a panic... until I saw a tattoo.. placed perfectly on their collarbone.

I blushed hard when I read the word "nevermind". I sat up and looked down at his sleeping face, much like I had done countless times before.

Feeling my eyes on him he slowly woke up to, and sat up next to me. His eyebrows furrowed when he saw me, giving me a very confused look.

"What happened last night..?" He asked gently in his husky voice. I didn't answer but tried to stand up from the bed... but I couldn't stand.

An aching pain in my behind struck me and I fell to the floor. That's when I realized, I was completely naked.

Hearing how hard I fell Yoongi darted towards me. When I looked at him my face turned 50 shades of red.. he was naked too.

The second we looked at each others faces however.. all of the memories came back. I remembered everything. I was so embarrassed.

I began to crawl away from him but he moved closer "J..Jimin.. I-!" I cut him off, "no.. I.. I was just drunk.. I didn't mean it I promise.. you don't have to worry.." my answer caused him to gulp hard and his face fell 20 stories down.

"Okay." His states coldly and started to dress himself. I knew there was no way he liked me back. He did it because he was needy. I sadly dressed myself too and limped to the door.

He sighed and spoke in a softer voice than before "Jimin you can't walk like that.." I stared at the floor "Well.. what else am I supposed to do..?"

He slipped his leather jacket from last nigh back on and walked to me. When he got close enough he picked me up so I was on his back.

"I can handle it.. put me down." He scoffed in annoyance "just shut up and let me help you." Not saying anything more as he wanted, he carried me away.

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We had gotten home by cab and he called someone "yeah. Is it done? Good." He then turned to me, his dark, piercing and hateful stare directed to me.

"You can go home now. See ya." His voice spat before his legs jogged him up the stairs and into his apartment.

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I was heart broken as I laid lifelessly on my bed. I knew this was how it would end but.. I had hope.

The way he looked at me last night.. I.. thought that meant he loved me. His eyes where filled with good emotions when you ignore the lust.. but the second we woke up his eyes looked angry and disgusted.

I sigh into my quiet room. I did this to myself.. this is what I wanted. I did it for him. I wanted to do it for him.

In that moment I know I would have died if that's what he wanted. I didn't care if it would hurt and now I'm paying the price.

I just wish I didn't have to fall for him. If I didn't, I could have kept liking Jisoo.. and possibly be with her.. I would grow up and get married and have kids and all of that.

I became half of a man for him last night, I let him do anything he wanted to me as long as it pleasured him and now I'm left alone and hating myself.

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After a couple of days I was back at school. When I walked in Yoongi was there. Seeing him made my heart ache.

Just as I thought.. the second his eyes lingered to me, a disgusted and angry look consumed his features and he stomped away.

I wanted to cry right then and there but.. I had no tears left. I had cried enough. I did my normal routine and went into my classroom early, sitting with my face hidden in my arms.

I felt a soft pat on my back and turned to see Jennie's face. She looked comfortable today. I could see the big grey sweater hugging her body warmly and the messy bun that decorated her more bare face than usual.

"Hey cutie! What's up?" I opened my mouth to speak but the words didn't come out. I didn't want to talk.

The last person I talked to was him... I only wanted to talk to him.. "You okay..?" She asked calmly.

I swallowed and choked out an inaudible "I'm fine.." before turning back around.

I didn't speak or smile all day. I couldn't do it. Everyone kept asking if I was okay and my answer was almost always "I'm fine" even though I felt like I was dying on the inside.

That was until Taehyung grabbed my arm and dragged me far away from the school. "What's up with you.." he asked in concern.

"I'm fine.." I state blankly in return.

"No you're not. I've known you forever. Tell me what happened." I instantly bursted into tears.

His eyes widened in surprise and he pulled me into a hug, pushing my face into his chest. "I slept with Yoongi.." I say through my tears.

Those words caused him to pull me out of the hug, his hands gripping each of my arms. "What? How did that happen??" Over come with emotion, I bite my lip and sniff loudly.

"W..we where drunk a..and.. I kept making a fool of myself..
So he took me to a hotel so I.. could sleep it off but.. I.. I told him I liked him and c-cause we where drunk one thing led to another and I slept with him..." his face twisted into an angry scowl but he didn't say anything more.

"W..when we woke up he.. he got really cold with me.. a-and he told me to go home and didn't speak.. t..to me after that.." he clenched his jaw and took a deep breath.

"So what.. he never deserved you anyways.. nobody deserves you." He growled.

"W..what..?" He gulped, "nobody deserves you! You're perfect! You shouldn't dine grade yourself to that ungrateful piece of crap." I stepped back in surprise.

"T..Taehyung..." his hands where balled into aggressive fists with his veins popped out. "What?!" He yelled In response aggressively.

"Taehyung.. do.. do you have feelings for me?" His face softened a hell of a lot and his lips parted. It changed to being stressed maybe only a second later.

"Yes I have feelings for you okay?! I've had feelings for you forever!!" I was so surprised I didn't know what to say.

I stepped back further and let out an "I'm sorry.." before running away.