Being Maisy Carson

8th

Elodie Dawson...

Best friend, sister, my other half hahaha.

Anyways, this is for you. I hope you like it.

Everyone knows that Maisy Carson and Elodie Dawson are a buy one take one kind of deal right?

You can't have one without having the other. We simply can't be separated.

Elodie, before you start having panic attacks on what you did wrong... trust me you didn't do anything bad.

This isn't a hate rant or anything like that.

I just want to say a few things to you..

I know that these past few weeks I've been more reserved and I know that you've noticed that.

Yes you've tried to confront me about it but I let you down by shrugging you off. We didn't have a really good relationship this past few weeks that I've been reserved.

I wish I'd actually come to you for help. I know you would be able to help me but I just can't bring myself to. I want to be saved so much more than you know but you know what they say... the heart is stronger than the mind.

My mind kept telling to get help but what can I do when all my heart is telling me to just... 'Stop it, I'm so tired of everything. I can't take it anymore.'

Do you know how hard it is for me to not just end everything then and there. To wake up everyday and find the will to go to school, see all those faces that caused me heartache, to see them happy with not a care in the world while I'm completely and utterly miserable?

It's horrendous...

Elodie, you and Chase are the only ones that kept me going for this long. The moment I see your faces and the smiles you plaster, the ache in my heart subsides a little.

But not enough.

I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry for everything. I know that when you get this video it's too late. You can't do anything about it Elodie so please act rationally.

When you came to my life and became one of my best friends, I was truly greatful to have you. You are one of the few people in my life who I know would always have my back no matter how stupid or bizarre the situation is.

Please don't be sad, Chase is still there with you. And if he leaves, I'll haunt his stupid ass... and we both know how scared he is of the supernatural.

Take care of Sam yeah? Don't let my brother be one of those ill-mannered boys at school who thinks the world owes them something.

And you, don't be too stubborn at times... you kinda do that. I know with your exceptionally high standards on guys, you would find one in the future don't worry.

Don't rush love, it'll come to you.

And you know your college application for Harvard that you're too scared to mail ... well I mailed them, your welcome. I know that you'll get in, you are super smart so I wouldn't worry about it.

I'm surprised you didn't actually know I took it. Well with how cluttered your room is I'm surprised you even find anything in it. Kidding!

Smile more, you're scaring guys, I especially know this one guy who likes you but is too scared cause you have that  effect on people.
you but is too scared cause you kinda have that effect on people.

AND! Even when I'm dead, update me on all the kpop happenings okay? I want you to go to my grave and tell me all about them. Especially BTS and Seventeen.

Don't forget!

I love you so so much Elodie, sister, best friend... mom hahaha.

Don't cry. I'll give you all my kpop posters and merchandise don't worry.

Play OUR PAGE BY SHINEE at my funeral okay. I left a note for mom too about that so she'll let you.

Okay, one final virtual goodbye hug...

Goodbye, Elodie Dawson

Unedited.

Finally after so many weeks! I updated! And yes OUR PAGE BY SHINEE cuz that so made me cry. Vote and comment😊