Back For You

chapter 23

Ninas POV

It's not that I wasn't expecting him to be so sweet but.. I wasn't expecting him to be so sweet. I figured he'd just come check on me and leave. But no, I layed my feelings out there on the table and he didn't run away with his tail inbetween his legs.

"I'm starving." I say trying to laugh.

Before we go down stairs he pulls me into him and kisses me. God am I happy that I'm about as tall as him.

Niall, carrie, Liam, and Louis are standing around the island eating different things. They look at harry and I briefly before continuing their own small talk.

"Good morning to you too." I joke as I open the fridge.

There really isn't anything that looks good so I decide on just making some toast. For some reason I jump when the toaster pops which causes harry to snicker at me. I feel him behind me and turn to make sure it's actually him. His hands are behind his back so it doesn't seem to suspicious.

"Are you feeling ok?" he asks as I butter my bread.

"Yeah I'm just going to go upstairs and eat." I reply giving him a small smile. He turns and begins talking to Niall leaving me to my own devices.

I pour me a glass of apple juice and go back upstairs. It's nice knowing how much he cares, it's mind easing knowing that I'm not making a complete fool of myself. After eating my mind begins taking me somewhere I love going.

I wouldn't mind harry as breakfast... I wonder how that feels? having sex right when you wake up. Suddenly I get an idea. Quietly I walk over behind the door and call harry. When I see him come in the room I close the door and right when he turns around I kiss him.

"Nina.." he says with a raspy voice. Him in General makes me want to go farther.

As we continue kissing he pushes me against the wall and uses his hips to keep me there. My hands are in his hair tugging slightly as his wrap around my waist.

"Ready for round two?" I smirk into the kiss. He replies by grabbing my bum and picking me up pushing his length into me.

His tongue claims my mouth within seconds and I moan. God he's so good, in every way. When I go to lift his shirt up he uses he knees to keep me on him and lifts his arms so I can remove it. He bites his lip while looking at me giving the butterflies in my stomach life. After a while he brings his lips to my neck and sucks gently, giving me small love bites. I've wrapped my arms around his neck and tilted my head to give him better access.

"I don't want to hurt you." he says forcing himself to stop.

"The only way you will hurt me is by not doing this." I say looking into his deep emerald eyes.

Our lips reconnect before I feel his hands grasp my bottom. This is so wrong but this is so incredibly right. I try undoing his pants but he stops me.

"What?" I say feeling rejected.

"I want to take my time, I don't want to be rough with you Nina." He says looking at me.

With that being said he gently puts me down and walks over to the bed. He motions for me to come stand beside him so I walk over. His hands reaches up to cup my face, making me relax at his touch. I want him, but if he wants to take it slow im not going to rush things. Im still hurting from last night anyways. He leans in slowly connecting our lips giving me the feeling of safety once again. His right arm hooked around my waist, pulling me into him as his other cupped my face.

It's hard to believe that 24 hours ago this would not be happening. This is all so completely overwhelming.

"Harry stop." I say and he immediately steps back. He didn't even hesitate, gosh he's so sweet.

"Ok." He replies with a small smile.

"I just.. I don't know... I want you but it just doesn't feel right right now, god I must seem so bipolar practically throwing myself on you and then telling you to stop"

"I'd prefer you telling me to stop instead of doing something you didn't think was right, and I understand it was the idea it's fine." he said pulling me close.

"Can we just.... talk for a while?" His eyes lit up like the Fourth of July which gave me a sense of relief.

"Of course"

We sat on the bed but remained silent for a while. He finally asked me how my day was and I laughed. From there we laughed and he forced me to talk about myself since "I already know him". I told him about how we came to Maryland and how my mom practically went insane after her stroke. She's, so much Ryder now and I don't know why but I'm used to it so it doesn't really affect me that much. The only time it does is when she says I can't do anything right. I avoided telling him about my cutting and my depression. That topic didn't seem to be appealing on a introduction to your life.

"So you mean to tell me that you'd take a bullet for me?" he asked as if it was really that surprising. I looked at him with a stupid look on my face while nodding yes. "You barely know me."

"So.. I know enough."

"What you see in magazines isn't always true."

"It's not the magazines, when your onstage." I say shrugging. "You always try making the best out of it and your so carefree. Harry the way you act onstage gives me more than I need." I smile.

He pauses a moment to look at me before leaning over and kissing me. He catches me off guard so when he really starts kissing me I fall back onto the mattress. I laugh as he asks if I'm ok and kiss him again. It soon becomes more deep as I feel butterflies in my stomach. His lips trail down my neck and I moan in response.

"Ha-arry." I say breathless, wanting more.

He brings his mouth to mine claiming dominance and I happily oblige. I pause, taking his shirt off before flipping him over. He smiles up at me as I straddle him making me feel more confident. Slowly, I begin kissing his chest down to his happy trail until he grabs my hair to bring his lips onto to mine roughly.

"God Nina, what have you done to me?" Harry says before taking my shirt on and flipping us over.

He presses himself inbetween my legs causing me to whimper in pleasure. This time my hands tangle into his hair as he continues to grind on me.

"Harold!" it takes a moment for Harry and I to realise that Simon is standing at the door looking at us.

"M-Mr Cowell I-I mean Simon." Harry says getting up from the bed as fast as he can.

"We need to talk, now!" Simon says clearly pissed off.

I scoot to the headboard and put a hand over my mouth. I can just tell that my face is red, oh I hope Harry doesn't get into trouble. Harry looks over to me with a worried expression before slowly walking passed Simon with his head down. The tension in the room could be sensed from a mile away right now. Simon looks at me then turns and leaves my room leaving me in utter shock. Simon Cowell just witnessed Harry and I practically fucking in his house, in his bed.

Tears spring down my face in embarrassment and worry as I put my head In my hands to attempt to forget what just happened. My heart stops, did he hear us last night?

"Oh my god" I whisper in horror and quickly run to the bathroom. The breakfast from earlier spill into the toilet as I throw up everything I had eaten. This day could not get any worse.

A/N

Helloooo sorry I haven't updated in FOREVER but I had to edit the first part and it was aweful!!!

Anyways if any of you have read since the beginning thank you because I know how much it sucks when people don't post for like a month.

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