Every Breath He Takes

Chapter 7 (Warning: Dark themes)

The morning came far too soon for Jin's liking. When he woke up, Yoongi was gone which meant he had to face Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook alone. And honestly Jin was scared.

He didn't know how they would react to the news, would they react like Hoseok did? Would they react with rage with Yoongi did or be somewhere in the middle like Namjoon was? Or would they break down crying? Jin didn't know and not knowing freaked him out more.

He got up and changed into some comfortable clothes and made himself a quick breakfast. He had no classes today and didn't really feel like going out. So he waited for one of them to come and start the lecturing, the yelling. Something really, anything but the more time past with no phone calls or text or any sign they were watching him, the dark thoughts started circling his head once again after months of not hearing them.

"They don't love you anymore."

"They are disgusted with you."

"They don't want you."

"Your ugly."

"Your pathetic."

Jin grabbed his head as if he was in pain, the voice wouldn't shut up and it was only getting louder and louder. He ran into his bathroom before his legs gave out and he collapsed onto the floor. Jin curled him into a fetal position.

He tried combatting the voice, telling himself it was lying and that they did love him but it just kept going. Telling Jin every negative thing in the book. Jin couldn't take it anymore.

"Just shut up already!" Jin shouted into the emptiness of his bathroom. The ringing in his head stopped and it seemed like his thoughts finally quiet down, or so he thought.

"Shut up? There's only one way to shut me up, Hoseok may have taken your knife but there's a perfectly good tub right there, the sleeping pills in your medicine cabinet, and the knife in the kitchen. Your choice."

Suddenly Jin's body felt like it was in autopilot, he silently stood up and turned the tub on. He walked out of the bathroom and acted like he was gonna take a bath in case they were watching him. He kept the kitchen knife hidden from sight so once he got his clothes he went to the kitchen and opened a lower cabinet. He took the knife and hid it in his clothes and then pulled out a box of soap before locking himself in the bathroom again.

He had shorts and sleeveless top on so he just climbed into the tub, not bothering turning the water off. He looked at the knife and then back at his wrist.

"You'll feel better in the end, trust me. I'm your friend here, I only want to help."

If Jin wasn't feeling so numb then he would cry but nothing was coming out. His hand shook as he slowly brought the knife to his wrist, just as he was about to make the cut to end it all...His bathroom door was practically broken off its hinges.

It was Taehyung.

Everything felt like slo mo for Jin, he barely registered Taehyung yanking the knife away, turning the water off from overflowing the bathtub even more, or Taehyung himself climbing into the tub and pulling in out.

"If this was a joke Jin Hyung then I'm not laughing." Taehyung then started yelling and asking Jin why but Jin was still out of it and his mind tuned out his outside surroundings.

Taehyung noticed this and realized it was pointless to try talking to Jin in this state. He turned around and was going to get a drink from the kitchen but it must've have been the expression he wore because the second he turned around, Jin clung onto him for dear life and started crying. "No don't leave me Tae! I'm sorry I'll be good, I'll behave! Just don't leave me! Please don't hate me!" Jin cried out, the voice got to him really bad.

Taehyung was shocked by the words that came out of Jin's mouth. "Baby I was just going to the kitchen. Why would you think I would ever leave you let alone hate you? I could never do that to you, you mean too much to me. What's wrong baby, tell me." Taehyung said in the calmest soothing voice he could.

"Y-You and Kookie and Jiminie never called or texted me and I-I know you know how I cut myself and tried to end my life so I freaked out and then this v-voice in my head started telling me you guys didn't want me anymore and you hated me and I was too ugly and pathetic to be loved." Jin cried into Taehyung's chest.

"Shhh, no baby don't listen to that voice, my phone broke and it's getting fixed so I couldn't contact you. That voice is a liar and doesn't know what its talking about. Jinnie is the most beautiful, kind, caring, loving, strongest person I know. I could make thousands of lists on why you are so perfect." Taehyung comforted Jin, he whispered sweet nothings as he changed Jin out of his wet clothes and into some dry warm pajamas. He peppered Jin with light kisses and constantly told him how much he loved him.

"Baby are you scared about Jimin and Jungkook's reaction?" Taehyung asked. Jin nodded yes. "Well you don't have to worry, you know why?" Jin was confused by the sudden questions. "No I don't. Why shouldn't I be worried?" Jin asked.

"Because we were here the whole time." A voice said from the entrance way of Jin's room. Jin looked over Taehyung and saw Jimin and Jungkook. Jin was starting to panic again and Jimin picked up on it.

"No don't panic kitten. Its okay calm down. Just tell me and Kookie everything that happened okay. Your not in trouble sweetheart we just want to know okay?" Jimin said, Jungkook nodding in agreement.

Jin took a deep breath before speaking. "Can you guys Namjoon, Yoongi, And Hoseok here too? I want you all here when I tell you."