Every Breath He Takes

Chapter 8

Jin was pacing back and forth in his bathroom. Jimin had called for Yoongi, Namjoon, And Hoseok to come back to his dorm. He looked at his reflection and just stared at his body.

Stared at all the scars he had created. He was scared out of his mind, he was about to tell them exactly how he almost died and just how close to death he was.

He took a deep breath and removed his shirt and pants, leaving him in his short underwear so his scars are on display. He put a blanket around him so he wouldn't freeze from the ac.

"Jin? They're here, whenever your ready." Jimin said from the door frame, he walked up behind Jin and wrapped his arms around Jin's tiny waist. "Its gonna be okay kitten. We'll always be here for you and we will never stop loving you." Jimin said as he lightly pecked Jin's neck.

Jimin's words offered Jin slight comfort and he followed Jimin out of the bathroom. The room was silent as Jin sat down, he sat between Jungkook and Hoseok.

Jin leaned his head into the crook of his Hoseok's neck. Hoseok offered a comforting hold on Jin's thigh and kissed the top his head. Jin looked and noticed that Taehyung must've of said something cause they were waiting for Jin to speak.

"D-Did Taehyung tell you already...?" Jin asked. He only got nods in response. Honestly he preferred it if they said something but Jin knew they wouldn't budge until he spoke. He moved from his spot and took the blanket off, rubbing the scars he had on his upper arms.

"I'm sorry you had to find out this way, this is actually the first time I've relapsed this badly in a while. I'm glad Tae showed up when he did, it was like I wasn't in control of my own body...like the thoughts had fully consumed me." Jin said and received the sound of voices he wanted so bad. "The thoughts? What thoughts Jin?" Namjoon asked.

"The thoughts...it was more like a voice, it would just keep telling me that I was ugly, unwanted, unloved, and so much more worse things and it was like the more I tried to ignore it the louder it got. Eventually that's when I started cutting and it started to quiet down...I know I shouldn't have but it felt like it was helping at the time-" Yoongi cut him off. "Because of us stalking you and you not knowing it was us. I get that Jin and I'm sorry but that doesn't answer the one thing that's been bothering me...bothering us. Hoseok told us you told him that you had a close call. Exactly what did that mean and how close we talkin here." Yoongi almost didn't want to know but he needed to know.

They noticed how Jin flinched at the question but he continued explaining. "Just as it sounds Yoongi, I almost committed suicide cause I couldn't take it anymore. And how close..." Jin's throat suddenly felt tight and he was shaking. He walked to his desk and pulled out a folder.

It was from the hospital. He couldn't read it himself so he handed it to Namjoon to read. Namjoon hesitantly opened the file and began to read it. "Kim Seokjin was admitted to the hospital at 2:45 am. He was found by a fellow university student who happened to be walking by and noticed..." Namjoon's hand almost dropped the folder while the other covered his mouth in shock. "W-When she noticed Kim Seokjin in a pool of his own blood, his body slowly falling downhill into a lake. The student immediately called emergency services and Kim Seokjin was transported to the nearest hospital. He had to go under multiple blood infusions and even surgery because he had stabbed himself in the-" Namjoon stopped and tossed the folder into Yoongi's lap.

Namjoon immediately stood up and got close to Jin. He held Jin's face in his hands before looking at his neck for any type of scar that would prove exactly where he stabbed himself. It didn't take him long to find it, it was faint now but still noticeable. He gently kissed it. "Baby..." Was Namjoon could get out, he held Jin in his arms and silently cried.

The others snapped out of their focus when Yoongi threw the file against the wall, the papers scattering every where on the floor. "W-What did it say Yoongi Hyung?" Taehyung asked. "Picking up from where Namjoon left off...because he had stabbed himself in the neck, very close to his throat and vocal chords. After surgery Kim Seokjin woke up not even a hour later and begged to go back to his dorm. It was a miracle he survived because his chances were 10 percent of surviving." Yoongi clenched his fists before punching the wall, make Jin and the others flinch.

Hoseok picked up paper and read the rest. "It will be even more of a miracle if he...if he talks again because even though they weren't badly damaged Kim Seokjin had managed to slightly cut his vocal chords." Suddenly it felt like a thousand lighting bolts went right through them, almost permanently losing Jin already scared them but their precious baby not being able to talk again scared them more.

Suddenly the room felt like it was spinning. Jin felt very lightheaded all of a sudden. Before he passed out, all he heard was them calling out for him. Suddenly everything was pitch black.

"...ng..."

"..ung..."

"...Hyung!"

Jin woke up with a startle. "Finally you're awake hyung. Come on we have practice today." Said Jungkook has he dragged Jin out if bed.

"It...it was all a dream?" Jin asked himself, that whole scenario he had dreamt up in his sleep from tiredness? But it felt so real, especially the feelings for Jungkook and the others

"What was that hyung?" Jungkook asked not picking up what Jin had said. Jin snapped out of it before he could worry Jungkook. "Ah it's nothing Kookie, just thinking about what to eat." Jin said, hoping Jungkook would buy it.

To his relief he did. Even id it was all a dream it didn't shake the feelings it left in Jin. "Actually Jungkook?" Jin asked, when Jungkook turned around he felt his hyung's lips on his.

It was soft and gentle yet firm, just like Jin. Just as fast as it started, it ended. "Hyung what was that for?" Jungkook asked.

"I love you Jungkook. I love you and Namjoon and Yoongi and Hoseok and Taehyung and Jimin so much. Do you feel the same?" Jin nervously asked.

"Do you even need to ask Jin Hyung? Of course we love you. Now, forever, and always." Jungkook said with a smile. "Now let's get ready for practice before Hoseok chews us out for being late."

Jin nodded and couldn't help but wonder if the kisses would feel like how they were in his dream or 10 times better like his kiss with Jungkook just now. And if he should tell them about the thoughts the dream brought back.