I am Aiden Lost, a little bit dark tinted skin and I am a man of 22 years old. I have met a woman, that have changed my whole life: Lara Gold. her surname tells her already.. A woman of gold. I am a man who likes to bring different women into house to have some fun, but also who uses drugs and alcohol everyday.
A great friend of mine: Lee Xin, that cares much about me. He thinks I should let my brain check at the doctor, because he thinks I am not 100 in my head. I kinda don't know if he is serious or not. Maybe he is just scared, but scared for what? I am sure I would never know it until he says it.
But yes.. this is me, someone who never cares about the people around me. I lost my feelings since I got 6. But.. forget this for now, here is my story.
I slowly walk on street, bored, but also zero fucks given everything around me. Wind that blows slowly against me. It's a bit cloudy, cold but not too much. Every person I pass is looking at me like an idiot. I guess they never saw someone with a real tired face. Dead face because of too much stress, drugs and alcohol? I keep holding my face higher than anyone and just look at them like I don't give a fuck. I calmly stroke my dark brown beard. I start getting more weaker and weaker trying to hold somewhere. I try to reach a bench, slowly I sit on the bench while everything is turning around me. Real dizzy I am. My green yellowish eyes turn slowly to a bit more red colored. My veins comes more out while using my strength and then when I lean on the bench. I start taking a deep breath and my body gets real weak. The only thing I see is only one thing, everything is gone except someone comes into my sight, it is my mom.
My eyes start being filled with water.. that normally never comes up until I see my mother. You wonder why.. but you will learn about me more in time, just be patiënt. I am not a person who likes to introduce myself, but in time you will learn more. But yes.. I see my mother and my eyes gets filled with water, I see a young Aiden next to her, screaming for my mother while she slowly goes away, and I lose my mind.
NEXT DAY
I slowly wake up and look around. I find my self on a couch, about to fall off, lying down like a crazy. I try to stand up but then my headache starts. I lie back down with my head like I lay when I woke up. I close my eyes and try to relax for a few minutes then I look up again, and this time I see Lee next to me. 'Aha, my father is here.' I joke and stand up. In my dirty messy living room. Random clothes, alcohol and some drugs on the table. Paper stuffs on the floor and all over the tables. 'Stop joking bud.' he holds my collar tightly. 'Wash your face now.' He looks with his dark brown almost black eyes deep and mad into my eyes, but also caring or scared, whatever. 'Sure, release me now?' I look with a real tired and a dead face, broken sad eyes.. only Lee could understand and see the pain I got, because he is the only one who knows about me, in details. Even I don't.
I stand up and walk towards the bathroom. I never like to look into the mirror, because I never.. like to see my face looking like someone I really hate. I walk to my room and throw everything out of my bed and lie down. While I stare at my front, I see a beautiful woman drawn on the roof. I hear Lee screaming my name from downstairs and hear footsteps coming nearby. I just look at the night table, I try to search for something, maybe I can use some drugs but then I see a knife. I slowly pick it up and look at it really interested. With my fingers I go through the sharpest side. there is still blood on it, dried blood.
when I am gone with my mind and playing with the knife, thinking about the case of the knife. Lee comes in and gets real scared. 'Aiden leave that shit back where you picked it from.' He looks scared but tries to look comforting.
'Lee, why do you care so much?' I slowly move to sit on the side of the bed, while putting the knife back on the night stand. 'Because you are like my brother.' he comes to sit next to me. 'Are you OK Aiden?' He looks worried. 'stop looking like that Lee. You know how I am. and DON'T touch the knife please, you know why.' He nods agreeing. 'Sure, but you aren't 100 sometimes.. picking up the knife like that. I am scared you will do something to yourself one day.' 'No I am fine Lee, I won't kill myself. If I would, I would done it 16 years ago.' he nods again and stands up. 'My wife waits for me, I gotta go, take care of yourself.'
There you go, he is gone and I am all alone again. Maybe he is just my only real friend. Everyone in this hood knows me, who I am but not what I have.
I look at the opened door that Lee left open. I pick a needle with drugs in it, and just do much more into my blood. As soon as possible I get stoned, I look again towards the door. And start crying randomly. I see my mom coming inside, playing with my hair. 'Aiden, stop doing this to yourself, you have to stay strong..' Then she walks away. I start crying heavily. 'Mom! mom no please don't go PLEASE!' I look scared and I can barely breathe. I try to stand up but everything turns around in my vision.
YOU ARE READING
Where is my prince?
De TodoA man that never wanted to be a dad. one day he meets a woman that changes his life to a way new life, but she died after the birth of their son and he becomes clueless.. Read the book to see what happens.
