Hit or Miss || lams

A Night To Remember... And Never Forget

~Alex~

I managed to buy a ring before bringing him out to a park i found. I waited until it was dark out so no one would recognize us from far away.

"So whyd you want me out here? It better not be second thoughts on killing me" he jokes.

"I would never! Besides, i wanted to talk..." I sigh.

"Couldnt we have just talked in the hotel?"

"No. Its important"

He looks confused but gives me his undivided attention.

"John, I haven't known you long but that doesnt really matter to me. I'll admit, since I met you at that bar I'd fallen for you. And thats saying something. I had to google what love is and ended up ranting about- you know thats highly unimportant"

He laughs a little

"Anyways... I hope the feelings mutual when i say this..."

I get down on one knee and take out a small black box.

"John... Will you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me?" I say.

His face turns red instantly as he shouts "Yes!" I get up and hug him tightly.

"Holy shit i thought you were gonna say no!-" he cuts me off by kissing me. I kiss back with no regrets for whatever happens later.

I feel a pain in my chest and back away.

"Alex? What's wrong?"

"I... I don't know..." I say. I stumble when I try to walk and John catches me before I fall to the ground.

"Something is definitely something wrong! You're pale, you're cold and-"

"It's probably nothing... Maybe I just-" I cough up blood. "Holy shit im dying!"

John looks off into the distance before carrying me to the van.

"W-whats going on?" I ask.

"Someone shot you! Where's your gun?"

"I didn't bring it. You don't bring a gun to a wedding proposal!"

He sets me down in the front seat and finds a pistol in the back. I grab his hand before he can leave.

"Wait... Don't go..." I manage to say. He pulls away and runs of in to the dark.

This night was supposed to be beautiful but now its th most stressful thing ever.

I swear if john doesn't comeback soon im driving myself to a hospital.

I start counting down

1

2

3

4

5

6

7-

I hear a gunshot and footsteps towards the van. John appears on the other side and starts driving.

"I cant believe it but I killed someone. Burr is dead" he says.

"Thats good..." I trail off as my vision starts to blur.

Can death wait a second please? Just a second

"Alex? Come on, stay with me, don't die!"

"John... I know I haven't said this before... but I'm not gonna get another chance..."

"Yes you will! Stay alive! Please!" I can barely see tears streaming down his face.

"...I love you John"

"No! Don't die!" He stops the van and grabs my shirt collar, kissing me one last time.

At least I get a good memory

~John~

I pull away but there's no reaction from Alex.

"Alex? Tell me you're not dead"

No response

I shake him a bit but he doesn't move

I spent at least an hour crying before driving back to New York. Laf and Herc hugged me when I got back to the apartment. I told them what happened and nearly had a breakdown.

I mainly stayed in my room.

A few weeks later I remembered the box of recordings alex told me about. He said not to open them till he died or we got married...

I grabbed the box from the van and brought it back to my room. Fortunately, all the voice recorders were labeled because theres at least 20.

I played the first one

"Hello, hello, hello. My name is Alexander Hamilton. I'm 22, from the Caribbean, and im not a bad guy. Well...not exactly.

"Im a hitman. I kill people for money. You give me a name, the reason for their untimely demise. I hunt and kill them and you pay me later.

"I guess I am a bit of a bad guy. Im not exactly innocent on any level.

"But I love my job! The thrill, the adrenaline, it all adds a bit of spark to life.

"As mentioned before, this is a job. My job. I work for a guy named Washington. George Washington. He's a true leader and im honestly surprised he's not a general or the president or something.

"I think he also knows more about me than he leads on. Like my past. Or how I'm- that doesnt matter.

"There's also another guy. Aaron Burr. We very rarely work together. Not like we're complete assholes around each other. Just that what we do usually requires just one person

"There's another guy but he doesn't deserve to be mentioned

"Theres one guy in my life who I'll take a bullet for, get back up, and take another bullet. In fact, that happened once. Very painful, I uhh I should've worn a vest.

"His name is john Laurens. I love- you know I should really start from the beginning. You never tell a story from the end.

...

"Welcome to New York, where you can be a new man or die trying-"

Man is it good to hear his voice again. I play the others but stop when I get to one.

"What is love? What is love? Like, i know it's an emotion. I know it's the feeling you get when you're around your crush. But what is love? Answer me this socrates!

-background sound of footsteps and a gunshot-

"Ow! Holy shit guns hurt! I guess thats a sign I should clean my room. Or my house in general...

"Back to the philosophy of love while I bandage my foot. You know what? Screw it, love is when you care about someone enough to put their life ahead of yours.

"And thats how i feel about John

I stop the recording. I never knew how much he cared.

I start crying again but this time a bit out of happiness.

"I cant wait to see you again Alex, it's only a matter of time. Just you wait" I sigh.

I put the box under my bed and head out to the living room.

Welcome to New York, where you can be a new man or die trying