Lust and Found Memory

SUSPICION

I'm lying down on my bed , I can't sleep even it's already midnight. It's not the usual me , I'm used to sleep before 10 even before I was still in college. But now is different, I felt the emptiness the way I used to feel back then the first time I woke up in comma. 

Sabi ni yaya Aika sa kin , I was in comma for alost 6 months , di ko alam , hanggang ngayun di ko alam kung saan Basta I have limited memories, mostly my memories were when I was already in college . I was taking up the last year in college and had a lot trainings, seminars to be promoted easily when I came back here in Cebu. 

Something's really bothering , questions are surging throuh my mind . I feel the urge to find all the missing pieces of myself. Just like a dejavu ,though I don't like , it smells ache , but I have to .

"Summer after high school when we first met.........................." my phone rings.

Hello, Luke ? Hey what's up . I'm sorry bout the last time. I was just you know. 

"That's fine Lianne , by the way . Why're you still up? It's kinda late already.

Well, I'm already trying to sleep when you called.

Oh , I'm sorry , -- no , it's ok . by the way Luke I'd like to ask you a question .You know Ken , that man right ? Are you two aquinatances for a long time?

Not for so long maybe at least 4 years, why ?  All of a sudden got interested with him? Is he bothering you? Look Lianne ,my advice is that , don't mind what he told you about the girl he knows, it didn't made sense . I know you since we were young . Maybe you look a like but I know she's not you . You've got to believe me , okay?

"Of course yes, I believe you . Don't worry . I'll hang up , gotta go . Goodnight "

Good night Lianne , dream of me .

(3:00 am)

Please wag mo na kong iblock, mag-usap tayu ,tumutulo kong sabi kahit alam kong di nakikinig ang nasa kabilang linya. ---Ohh my G. Ba't ganun ? Ba't ako umiiyak at nagmamakaawa . I realized I was having a nightmare and it's till 3:00 AM. Tsaka sinung sinasabihan ko nun? Bakit nasa barko ako ? Ang weird, sumakit bigla ulo ko at parang ang sikip ng dibdib ko . Hays, anung nangyayari . 

Pinikit ko na lang mata ko , I have to sleep again. Tomorrow's another day.

"Hello Ms. Monique ", bati sa kin ng secretary kong si Faye.

Good morning Faye. By the way , what's my schedule ?

Ahh Ma'am , whole day po kayung my meeting together with Mr. Ken Andallo"

Wow, another ,stressing day with that Kenchuy, pagud na ako , umaga pa lang.

Ma'am , pinapasabi din po ni Mr.Andallo na , pumunta na lang po kayu sa office nya . 

"Ok Faye", you may go now.

Bahala kang mokong ka, maghintay ka sa wala. Sureness, iiritahin mo lang ako . Masisira beauty ko .Hhhmmmmp . Kakain na lang ako total lunch time na halos wala na akong nagawa kundi mgbasa ng libro. 

Sino yan? Ano ba, mababasag ang door ko ! sigaw ko sa sinu man hinayupak na pilit binubugksan ang pinto, kaya pinundut ko na ang switch pra ma auto-open .

Ba't di ka pumunta sa office ko ? Late ka ngang pumasok , pinaghintay mo pa ako ng 5 oras. I was waiting the whole time, sabi ng Kenchuy na tu.

Ohh , ehh ba't di ikaw ang pumunta ditu ? Tanga ka ba? Did I say hintayin mo ko ? at tsaka , am I that beautiful para aburido kang di nasilayan ang mukha ko sa umaga. I mocked at him.

Yes, first of all , you're that beautiful that I want to see you . I didn't say to go there just to see you but because of the project that we have to start . Peru anu ba ang reason mu at di ka pumunta doon? Dati rati habul ka ng habul sa kin"bulong pa nya kala di ko narining peru I won't make it a big deal kasi mas na absorb ng utak ko ang unang sentence nya.

Kasi nga Mister, nakakapagud ka pong kausap . Daaahhh, isa pa ayaw kitang makita , nasisira araw ko .

Really, honey? Pagud ka na , di mo pa nga ako nakikita , paano na kaya kung pagudin kita tulad ng dati ? I was very shocked with the last sentence. Halos lumuwa mata ko sa paglaki nito .

YOU! I will really tell Dad about it. I was fuming.

Sige sabihin mo at sasabihin ko rin sa kanya ang ginawa mo today . Wala kang ginawa kundi paghintayin ako at wala kang tinulong sa presentation for tomorrow. Ano?

"Ok fine , whatever. "

Ngumiti na lang sya at lumabas akala ko tuluyan ng lalabas, huminto pa talaga pra inisin ako .

Take a rest , I don't want anyone or anything makes you tired, I want only me to make you TIRED. 

Di ko namalayan namula pala ako ,letchugas na lalaking yun. I notice these past few days, nagiging badtalker na ako . Nawawala ang poise ko .😂😂😂😂😂😂