My Deadly Ice Queen (A munakata reisi x emotionless reader)Re-edit (Discontinue)

Chapter 15,There always a first time for everything even for a ice queen right?

Tokaku pov
It was already 10:30 pm by the time I finish my work and I could feel that my eye is dry, probably do to the fact I haven't blink once since well I started doing my report. I then processed to pack my things and headed straight back to my dorm and when I finally made it back and put my laptop, paper and some book on my desk there was a knock on my door and judging from the aura is Awashima, I went and open the door and Awashima was there in normal clothing "Nice work today Tokaku-kun" she greeted with a smile as I just remain silence and emotionless "About the invitation I offer you in the afternoon would you like to join?" she ask 'Well I'm bored anyway' I thought as I nodded mutely and headed out "Your not going to change your clothes?" she ask as I lock the door and walk to the exit and I could sense her following. After about 20 minutes we were walking on the street and I have no idea which bar she heading but I couldn't care less to ask so I just follow her quietly "There the place" she said as I look at the sigh 'Homra bar. Isn't there where the red clan live?' I thought as I follow her inside and surprisingly the bar is quiet. A person lying on the sofa caught my attention do to his enormous hot aura I felt 'The red king Suoh Mikoto'I thought "Ah welcome Seri–chan~" I turn towards the voice 'Homra second in command Kusanagi Izumo' I thought as we sit down "And who is this lovely lady with you?" he ask "This is Tokaku, she joins Scepter 4 a few months ago and she the fourth in command" Awashima said "Hmmmm so your the new member of Scepter 4 huh~Nice to meet you." he said with a smile as I just stare back at him with a emotionless face and I noticed his smile drop for I don't know "An–anyway what do you both want to drink?" he ask sounding awkward "I would like the usual please" Awashima said 'So she come here often' I thought "And what about you Tokaku–chan?"  'chan?' "something sweet" I said "Right on it" he said "So what do you usually do in your free time Tokaku-kun?" Awashima ask "......" I said nothing and just stare at the ceiling and after a while he come back with two drinks in his hand. After I heard him setting down the drinks I look down to find a chocolate milk shake with fruit on top on it "......" I look at it for a while and drank it 'not bad' I thought "How it is?" he ask sounding nervous "It a new recipe I came up with" he said "hm" was my reply as I eat a cherry "She doesn't talk very much" I heard Awashima said as I glance over her seeing her drinking a cocktail with..... lot of red bean paste on top of it........ 'the.... hell....?' I glance at her drink for a bit then continue to look back up to the ceiling and after a while of staring at the ceiling I felt a presence beside me and judging from the aura is Suoh Mikoto 'Does he have to sit next to me? Isn't there are other available sit?' I thought but kept quiet and after a while I look down at the table since my neck is getting sore for looking up for that long and close my eye since I hate looking at my own reflection, I hate looking at my own reflection  and I just sat there closing my eye and listen to my music and after a while I look up to see a news on the TV. I take out my earbud so I could hear what they're saying and it about a woman who commit suicide something like that "Why do people end their lives so easily? What the point in that?Right Seri–chan?" I heard Kusanagi said "How should I know?" Awashima reply.

Awashima pov
"How should I know?" I replied to Kusanagi question "Sometimes people commit suicide is not to end their life but to end their pain" I suddenly hear Tokaku-kun spoke which surprises me a bit since I thought she wasn't going to talk "End their pain?" I said "Pain come in all kind of form" she said while stirring her drink "..........." it was quiet for a moment when Tokaku-kun suddenly stand up and headed towards the door "Where are you going?" I ask "fresh air" she said before closing the door.

Tokaku pov
I headed outside for some fresh air and stepping outside it was raining 'not like I care' I thought and put on my earbud and step into the rain 'not like I care getting wet anyway and I noticed something on the wall. I got closer and it was just some graffiti but one word catch my eye, it was written in a different language "We are each our own devil, we make this world our hell" I said "So that what the word means huh" I heard a voice from behind me and I turn around to see Suoh Mikoto standing there with a cigarette in his mouth "You know normal people usually look surprised if there being startled but your face and look like a doll while your eye look like a dead person eye." he said while I just look at him emotionlessly but I could tell that he has depression with the tired look in his eye "Depression is a prison where you are both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer" I said "The hell that suppose to mean?" he said "You should know that better than anyone else" I said. After a while I saw Awashima exiting the bar as she walk towards to us "You're gonna catch a cold standing in the rain" she said while giving me a black umbrella "Kusanagi–san let us borrow it but I have something to do tomorrow so would you mind helping me return this?" Awashima said 'I don't want to own people anything' I thought so I just nodded and we leave.

The next day
Tokaku pov
I headed towards Munakata office so I could hand in the report from the other day and after I arrived there I just open the door without knocking "Ohya Tokaku-kun it polite to knock when your entering someone else room"he said with his usual smile while playing jigsaw puzzle and I just walk over there and handed him the report and I turn around and leave but before I could open the door "Why can you have more trust in people Tokaku-kun?" I heard him said.

Munakata pov
"Why can you have more trust in people Tokaku-kun?" I said to her just as she was about to leave "One is because I don't know them, second is because I do know them" she said without turning around 'Her word are always a bit hard to understand' I thought "Trust are easy to build but once it destroy it can never be repair" she continues "Human are simple creatures and humanity never change no matter how much time have pass, betrayal, lying, jealousy, war, greed. Just like how you and the red king always fight" she said and that kind of hit a spot 'Just what had she gone through and what is she thinking?' I thought "While aside from those they are also a beautiful side of humanity as well. Where there are darkness there are also light." I said "............" she didn't say anything and just leave. I sigh 'How could I get her to open up?' I thought.

Tokaku pov
'Where there are darkness there are also light?That thought never cross my mind' I thought 'I'm a assassination and assassination will never see the light of this world. We live in the darkness and the smell of blood and besides I don't even wanted to know this world beautiful side' I thought.

––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––"What a pathetic and meaningless life, I do not need friends, there are unnecessary. Even if I didn't betray them they will betray me eventually and even they didn't betray me, eventually I will betray them. I treated life like a game cause it is one........