Loving an Angel (Jay x Daniel fanfic)

The Beginning of the End

I wake up to my alarm. The alarm was playing the song Give 'Em Hell by The All-American Rejects. It had been 3 years since the incident with Hoon. I was being homeschooled since then. I changed drastically. I grew my bangs out to cover my eyes, I bleached my hair, and I never talked anymore. I had become depressed since then. I decided to enroll in public school once again. I started again next Monday. I've been constantly going to the doctor, so I haven't really been able to go to school either. My eyes had been looking a lot better. Even so, I was still self-concious.

*Monday. 6:30 AM.*

I awoke to my alarm, this time it played the song Anklebiters by Paramore. I had awaken in a suprisingly good mode. I grabbed my school uniform out of my closet and headed towards the showers. I undressed, and then proceeded to turn on the water. I reached my hand out, so that I could feel the temperature of the water, until I thought it was ok. After about a 5 minute shower, I grabbed a towel, and stepped out of the shower, after drying myself off. I lifted my bangs as I looked in the mirror. I closed my left eye and touched the scar. I begin to examine my physique. There really wasn't much to look at. In fact, I was starting to gain some weight.

I started to change into my clothes at about 6:10. After heading out of the restroom, I thought of calling a gym, but I decided not to, since I don't talk. I'll go after school... I go to my room and clean up a bit. I then put on my shoes. They were some Louboutin kicks.

*7:30 AM*

I start exiting my home to get on my motorcyle. I had already turned 16, so I was allowed to drive one. It was a red one. About the shade that a STOP sign would be. I started it up and began the journey to school. It was about 5 minutes away.

*5 minutes later, arriving at school.*

Well this is it... Here is K High... I know I insisted on going, but now that I'm here... I'm freaking the fuck out... I haven't really had human interaction in years. At least not for about 7 hours... I look at the map I was given, and start heading to class. As I walk, I feel a lot of female eyes on me. I hate when girls do that. They don't know what's under my bangs... I'm a disgusting monster... They only judge peoole on what they see, or in my case, what they think they see. I'm really not special... I'm honestly no one. The thing is... We're all a no body. We'll all be forgotten one day. None of us will matter once we're dead. What's the point in being good looking, or wealthy. It'll all go down the drain... Whether that's during you're life time, or during your death. Like Tom Scott and Kurt Cobain. Tom Scott was ruined before his death. Kurt Cobain was ruined after his death. Not many people care about them anymore. They're dead. They don't matter. Just like I don't...

As I walk down the halls, I bump into my teacher. "Oh, aren't you the new transfer student? Come with me so that I can introduce you." He says. I nod and bow down to show that I mean no disrespect because of my silence. "Wait here. I'll make a quick announcement, and then you can walk in." He says as he walks in to the loud classroom. "Ok class! We have a new transfer student!" He announces. I overhear many people asking "Is it a boy or a girl?" Some girls said "I hope it's a handsome guy!" I walk in. I stare at the class for a few seconds, kind of hoping that the teacher would introduce me. "Why isn't he saying anything?" I hear a male voice call out. The teacher leans into my ear and says "Introduce yourself." He pats my back. I try to make gestures saying I don't talk. A student finally gets the hint. "Oh... He says he doesn't talk. He's not deaf or anything, he just doesn't talk." A tall boy with somewhat long, gray hair says. His voice sounded so deep and, somewhat soothing. It felt so familiar and friendly. "*Clears throat* You can write your name on the board, then." The now annoyed teacher says. I quickly write out the letters J. A. Y.
H. O. N. G. The teacher looks at my name for a few seconds and then finally says "Ok, Jay. You can sit by the window over there. The one behind Kang Jun." The name hits me like a brick.  I start sweating a bit, but then I walk over to my new seat. I decide to pretend as if I never knew him. I mean, it's been 3 years! He probably won't remeber me... He'll remember you. You'l be forces to suffer again. He'll hurt you. Those 3 sentences kept running through my head.

*Lunch Time.*

I get up and start walking out the class, when I hear a familiar voice call my name. It was Kang Jun. I turn around. "It's been a while... Hasn't it Jay? I've missed you... When I was smaller, I'd always wait for you. I was so worried! Why didn't you contact me?" He exclaims. I felt my heart sort of sink. I began to feel... Bad. I felt bad for making him worry. Yet, I felt relieved. Relieved that he cared so much... I just shrug as a response. Everyone has already left... We're alone. Kang Jun leans in and kisses me on the lips. "I've been looking all over for you..." He gives off a weak smile. At that point, my heart was racing. It felt as if it would explode in my chest. "Let's go have lunch!" Kang Jun exclaims. From then on... We would always makeout whenever we were alone. It was so exciting to me! That was... Until we got caught.