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You wear pink

You walk around in heels

You smile at everyone and everything

You seem to walk on air

But

I wear gray

I stay in a comfortable pair of boots

I haven't smiled in ages

I can't keep up there with you

But

I used to wear pink

I used to dance around in heels

I used to laugh with friends till it hurt

I used to float on clouds

But then

I started wearing gray under my pink

I switched to flats

I started pretending to enjoy myself

I started to go down

And then

I stopped hiding the gray

I switched to my easy boots

I stopped trying to please everyone else by seeming pleased myself

I land on the ground and it had this horrible thing called gravity

But

You still wear pink

You haven't noticed the shade I've become

You didn't miss the sounds of my heels clicking against the floor

You stopped caring that I wasn't sitting next to you anymore

You don't really care that I went down

Regardless

I hope you pose for pictures with your hand on your hip in a pink dress

I hope you jump around in your heals as they click about

I hope you feel at your best with giggling friends at your side

Because

It hurts that you don't hurt anymore, that you've given up and worn gray

It hurts to lace up the same shoes everyday and walk in them

It hurts that there are frown lines on your face that no one else has

It hurts to be gray