Two Parents - sequel to Me Before You

Can't Stop Loving You

Bella POV

I parked my car as I went inside the restaurant. I was gonna talk to Paul face to face about everything. I admit. I miss him so much. I miss us being home together with the kids. I want that to happen again. It also was out that he had another baby. They named her Meadow. Its a beautiful name. I found him sitting on a table alone. He saw me and smiled a bit. I returned the gesture and took a seat. "Hey. How are you?" He asked. "Great." I said. "How's the kids?" He said. I smiled. I like he never stop thinking about Justin and Jason. "They're good. They're doing great in kindergarten." I said. He smiled. "That's great." He said. There was an awkward silence between us. "Um, Paul. I don't know what to say honestly." I said. He squeezed my hand. "You don't have to say anything. I have to. Its my fault for hurting you. I guess I was just scared of having kids when I wasn't ready to have a kid. But I really love Justin and Jason. And I wanna be there when they grow up. I wanna be with you through it all. I know you don't want to see Rebecca but you'll just have to accept she'll be around sometimes for Meadow." He said. I nodded. "Ok, we can do this. It'll be just lots of changes but we'll get through it. But I'm super tired of being insecure. I know I'm beautiful, I know I'm good but I always feel like I'm not good enough for you. Its like when you slept with Rebecca, those insecurities came back. I love you, I wanna be with you. I wanna build this family but I'm not gonna stay here if you just keep betraying my trust." I said. Tears formed in my eyes. He looked at me in shock. "What are you talking about?" He asked. I sighed. "When we were younger, and you know? Going crazy? I found out you...slept with Rebecca's friends." I said. He rubbed his hair. "Bella.... who told you?" He said. I wiped my eyes. "Caleb. He said I deserved to know." I said. I was in deep pain once he told me then. Rochelle always said that's what happens when you date a California boy. She always said that to taunt me. I took a deep breath. "I'm so...so sorry. I'm really sorry. Bella, you're honestly the best thing that's ever happened to me. The day I saw you...you were the most beautiful and sweetest, tough girl. I really liked that about you." He said. I cupped his face with my hands. "You're the best thing that's ever been mine. I love you so much Paul. No matter if I leave, I won't stop loving you. If we'll be doing this, we have to be honest and learn how to trust." I said. He looked at me. "I know. I'm sorry I betrayed yours." He said. I nodded. We kissed passionately. I hugged him. He hugged back. "I missed you." He whispered. I chuckled, feeling his face buried onto my neck. "Missed you too." I said. We parted. "By the way, I wouldn't mind meeting Meadow." I said. He smiled. "Really?" He said. I nodded. "That's great." He said. I smirked. "Justin and Jason are excited to see their baby sister." I said. He chuckled and kissed me. I kissed back. We left the restaurant this time he got in my car. Thankfully, only 3 paps took stupid pics. He drove as I looked out the window. I smiled at him. He returned the gesture. This is what I missed.
Us driving together like we are 19 again.