Two Parents - sequel to Me Before You

Was I Ever Yours?

Bella POV

Later, I sat and stayed in the living room. I didn't say anything to him. He looked at me. I looked away, trying not to blink away tears. He smiled. "I missed you." He said. I fake chuckled. "Like that's true." I said. He looked confused. "What are you talking about?" He asked. "Did you had much fun with those hoes in the club? More than someone who gave you two kids and loved you since kid." I growled. "What are you talking about Bella?! What's wrong?" He said. "I saw the photo Paul. A photo of you with some girl on top of you in the club." I said. He sighed. "Bella...I'm- I cut him off. "That's ok. I see I was never important to you anyway." I said. I got up and left but he grabbed my arm. "Bella, I'm so sorry! Seriously! Listen to me!" He said. I growled and slapped him across the face. I just wanted to hit him. Well that's done. Tears formed in my eyes. "I want you to stop hurting me. I'm tired of it Paul. You say you love me but is that really true? Did you ever want me? All you're doing is destroying me right now. I love you but I don't wanna keep hurting. We have two kids and you have a daughter providing for. I'm not just going to be hurt. That's all." I said. He looked down in shame."Bella. Bella...I'm sorry." He said, whispering at the end. Tears fell from my eyes. "Just go. Now." I said. I looked away from him. He looked at me one last time before he left. I cried and ran upstairs.

I was in our bedroom. I had my songbook in my lap. I cried as I written every lyric of my song. I wiped my eyes and looked at the title of it. Smoke and Mirrors. I dropped the pen and covered my face to cry. How could he do this to me? I huffed. My phone buzzed. I swear if its Paul...I'm going to choke the hell out of somebody. It was Mom actually. I answered. I cleared my throat. "Mom?" I said. "Hey baby. How are you?" She said. I sniffled and cleared my throat again. "I'm fine. How's the boys?" I said. She chuckled. "They're great. They're such good boys...though Jason jumped onto my neck." She said. I chuckled. Did he really do that? "He likes to do that sometimes. Did you tell him to stop?" I said. She responded with a mmhm. "Yup. But they're fine they ate dinner and now they're asleep." She said. I sighed. "Thanks mom." I said. "Aww baby. Kylie told me what happened. I'm so sorry babygirl. But your dad...didn't take it well." She said. I groaned softly. "Mom, why did you tell him?" I asked. "I didn't. He heard. Sweetheart, its gonna be ok." She said. I took a deep breath. "Thanks mom for calling. I just wanted to be alone at first." I said. "Sometimes its better to be surrounded by people who love you." She said. I smiled. "Thank you. Bye." I said. "Bye baby." She said. I hung up and looked at my songbook. Tears formed in my eyes. God, why do I keep crying? Oh yeah, because of him. I sighed. I wiped my eyes and went back to finishing the song. (Song up top)

So tell me did you ever really love me?

Did you ever really want me?

Now that I see you clearer

I wonder, was I ever really happy?

Didn't get the chance to ask me

Now that I see you clearer

Was it just smoke and mirrors?

Was it just smoke and mirrors

Holding onto tables

Pulling out the staples

Keeping you close, no we're not afloat

Point me in the right direction

Ask me one question

Cause I could've sworn that I wasn't wrong

Waiting til the demons come

Wait for us to see them run

In our direction

Now they're staring at us through the trees, got us falling to our knees

To teach us a lesson

So tell me did you ever really love me?

Did you ever really want me?

Now that I see you clearer

I wonder, was I ever really happy

Didn't get the chance to ask me

Now that I see you clearer

Was it just smoke and mirrors

Was it just smoke and mirrors

Darling I have been afraid

I could only call your name

Thank the heavens that you stayed

But if I'm telling you the truth

When I cut the tether loose, it was me saving you

I rewrote the chorus again and finished the song. I wanted to keep this song private. I don't want none of the press nor media know about my private life. That's why my song Closer To Me won't be a single nor on my album. These are my private songs. I closed the book and put it back in the nightstand. I unchanged in the bathroom and took a shower. I came out and my phone buzzed. I groaned. Can people stop calling me right now?! I picked it up and answered. "Hello?" I said, hoping it wasn't Paul. "Bels." Kylie said. I breathed a breath of relief. "Yes Kylie? I'm a little irritated people are calling a lot." I slightly growled. "Sorry. Everybody's worried about you. You haven't left the house- I cut her off. "Yes. I did...with Drew." I told her. "What? Why? Don't he got a hard crush on you?" She asked. I sighed. "Yup and I told him we're better as friends. You may find this a little insane but we went to the club and I had a plan to act lovey dovey with him so I can post a picture and show Paul I'm better with or without him." I said. "What?! Are you crazy Bella Beckham?" She said. I slightly chuckled. "Yeah but I didn't go with it. Some part of me didn't like it at all." I said. She sighed. "Some part of you like your heart? Huh?" She said. I shrugged. "Maybe." I said. "Anyways, are you doing stuff tomorrow? We could go out. Anything you like." She said. I smiled. "Why?" I asked. "Because its going to be an only girls week! I got everything planned. It'll be you, me, Gigi, Maya and Kendall. Bryana can't come cause she's pregnant and planning her wedding." She said. "You sure about this?" I said. "Yes. You deserve time away from men and enjoy life outside. Besides you don't have anything to do in the house than just sit and mope." She said. Well, I'm really needing fresh air. I really do. I hate being hurt. I smirked. "Tell me more about this trip when I get to your house." I said. She cheered. "We're going far away in California. To stay in this amazing beautiful house suite for a week. Its amazing trust me and we'll do lots of awesome shit." She said. I chuckled. "Don't say too much. When is the trip?" I said. "After this weekend. The Rover will pick up every one of us." She said. I smiled. "See you there!" I said and hung up. I sighed. Time to finally have fun!