Stuck in the middle (mavi)

chapter 2

Mitch

I was walking on the dark street alone, towards my house. Thinking about what kirstie had said earlier. I didn't want to think about it, but every time I distracted myself, something or the other reminds me of Scott.

I was nearing my house, which was round the corner, I stopped and thought, Scott is probably not even at home right now. He might have gone with Alex to his house or wherever he goes to...where does he go with him?

I walk up to the door and pull my keys out, just as I was about to put the key in the keyhole the door opens. Alex bumps into me, a smile planted on his face.

"Oh hey Mitch!" He emphasised the way he said my name. Why am I getting bad vibes about this. I'm doubting his behaviour.

"Hey Alex," I replied, trying to look inside the house, but he was blocking my view.

"Where were you, I thought you'd be here when I came?"

"I went to kirstie's, she wanted me to help her with something." What I really wanted to say was, 'even if I did stay you and Scott would've gone up to the room or gone out.' But I didn't, after all he was Scott's 'friend' I respect his friends.

"Can I go inside my own house please" I was starting to get irritated.

"Of course you can come inside! Mitch!" Again he emphasised the last couple of words. Alex walked out, purposely blocking me, making it harder for me to go inside. I manage to push past him, but before I reached the door, Scott appeared breathing heavily and sweating.

I started breathing heavily too, I was feeling a little light headed. I'm doubting Scott!

I did not like the way he just showed up, I really did not like the way Alex was acting, not letting my in my own house and for god damn sake I'm still outside.

"Mitch, hey!" He breathed, trying to control himself. Alex just stood there. "Ermm, Alex I'll see ya tomorrow!" Are you kidding me!

"My place." He replied.

"Your place" Scott nodded his head. I don't think he noticed me watching. Does he even realize I'm still here? I walk inside chucking my jacket on the couch, rushed upstairs to my room and locked my door.

I heard the door shut a few minutes later. But I didn't hear any footsteps coming upstairs. I haven't been in my room for a long time, usually I sleep with Scott. But right now I don't think sleeping with Scott will help me.

I grabbed my old diary, that no one knows about and write the first feeling that popped in to my head.

Confused.

That was all, I shut my book, clearly that was not helping.  Am I jealous? I'm not the jealous type, because if I was jealous I would have said something long time ago right?  But why do I feel like whatever I'm experiencing right now is jealousy.

I'm not jealous, I just need clarification.

I lay on my bed, holding onto my pillow drifting of to sleep.

Next morning

I got up and went downstairs for my daily routine of spongebob. Scott wasn't around so I was guessing he was asleep.  I needed to speak to someone. I called kirstie.

"Hey kirstie, can I come over, I need to speak to you" I asked

"Oh..Mitch...ermm. I am kinda busy right now.." I heard some whispers in the background and some giggles. I think I know what was going on.