Stuck in the middle (mavi)

chapter 21

brace yourselfs ;)

scott

i overheard mitchs conversation on the phone with avi, i only heard his side of the conversation but when he said my name, it caught my attention. he talked about what happened just a while ago, not mentioning me biting his finger. he called avi babe which reminded me that he was someone elses. i was about to turn away and walk back to my room but mitch stripped off all his clothes leaving him in just his boxers. which was hard for me not to watch as he stretched.

when he went into bed, i went back to my room and got the cup of water and the pills that mitch brought me. i drained the water down the sink in the bathroom and chucked the pills in the bin. i didnt really have a headache, i just wanted him to be near me.

i sat in my bed. thinking about what i just did. should i have done that. i shouldnt have lied to him, it was lying to him that made our relationship fall apart. no... i didnt do anything wrong, mitch is mine, he was always mine. if only i didnt have too much to drink that night. mitch wouldve still been mine.

i wiped away the tears that i didnt realize was falling from my eyes. im want my mitch back. i took a picture of him and me from under my pillow. he was smiling in this picture, he is so beautiful, esther took this picture of us hugging, my shn on his shoulder and i was hugging him from behind, he had the sweetest smile on his face. i love this photo. i placed the picture against my chest and fell asleep.

 (next morning)

i woke up and went downstairs, i saw mich sanding there fixing some things around. he was looking really hot with his tank top on and shorts. i went over to him and hugged him from behind, startling him as we swayed.

"s-scott, what are you doing!" i nuzzled my head in his neck. "SCOTT!" he shouted pushing me away and i came back to reality. im still not used to this feeling of him being here but not being mine.

"i-im so sorry mitch i-i for-"

"save it!" he snapped. "why cant you accept the fact that we are not together?"

"because i love you. i always have and will continue to do so"

"love? you..love me?" he scoffs "well thats funny because...i dont remember feeling love whilst YOU WERE OUT DOING WHATEVER WITH ALEX!" his voice got louder.

"i wasnt doing what you think i was doing with ale-"

"oh really! the day i came back from kirstie's house late at night and alex opens the door and kept restricting me from going inside the house, until you showed up breathless and sweating. was that nothing, because if you were doing nything with alex of that sorts he for one wouldve let me in the house and you wouldnt take so much time to come to the door!"

"mitch i have a reaso-" he cut me off again,

"oh and lets not forget about the party that alex invited us to, you kissed alex! you left me alone in a house filled with strangers to go snog with alex. if that was your way of trying to break up with me, then doing it face to face wouldve been way more better than behind my back!"

"mitch, i was dru-" again he cut me off. i was starting to lose my patience

"NO! okay fine you were drunk...that doesnt excuse your mistake! why did you keep it a secret. in fact why did you even keep secrets. why couldnt share yur secrets with me like i shared mines with you. why couldnt you tell me where you were going with alex. why couldnt you spend even the slightest amount of time with me, why did you le-"

"BECAUSE I WANTED TO PROPOSE TO YOU!" i was my turn to cut him off, i felt like i just let my heavy heart loose of this fact. that weighed me down, that broke me every waking moment of my life.

mitch

"...BECAUSE I WAS PLANNING FOR WHEN I PROPOSE TO YOU, TO BE THE MOST SPECIAL MOMENT OF OUR LIFE!"

"wha-"

"THE PARTY WAS JUST AN EXCUSE! EVERYONE IN THE PARTY WERE THERE FOR A REASON. THOSE CHEERLEADERS WERE THERE FOR A REASON, THE MUSIC...ALL OF ME BY JOHN LEGEND THAT PLAYED, I PICKED THAT SONG FOR A REASON! I WANTED TO MARRY YOU! ONLY YOU!" he heaved his chest, his tears streaming down his cheeks. i couldnt speak. i dont even think i was breathing whilst he spoke.

i remembered the cheerleaders chanting my name, when i was about to leave alex's house and the music changing to all of me by john legend inside the house, and everything went from loud music and people talking to absolte silence that night. that same night he kissed alex, was supposed to be the night he proposed to me. he was going to...propose..to me.

"MITCH!" i snapped out of my thoughts, "i have always loved you, there was nothing going on between me and alex." he wiped his tears and came closer to me.

"DONT TOUCH ME! J-JUS...DONT...I NEED TO THINK."

"mitch..."

"IM GOING UPSTAIRS....please...just leave me alone." i ran upstairs without listening to what he had to say, i burst through my room and slammed the door shut, i searched through my room for my headphones, once i found them. i got my laptop and sat on my bed, desperately waiting for t to turn on. i quickly went on youtube one thing on my mind, i typed..

scott hoying, all of me

i put my headphones on and plugged it on my laptop. i clicked his cover and listened to it all over again, only now realizing the pain shown in his voice throughout the pain. the amount of soul he put into it. i was crying at the end of it, i moved my laptop out of my way shutting it closed. i got up to call avi. he didnt pick up.

"what the heck could he be doing..." i stopped myself as i remember it was 8am and he would never wake up at this time. i chucked my phone onto my bed and flopped myself onto the bed crying into the pillow.

i was so confused, i needed to talk to avi. i wanted to talk to scott, but even if i did, what would i say.

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if you want to read the chapter where alex stops mitch from going inside its the end of chapter 2

if you want to read the party where the cheerleader and shiz is, its also the end of chapter 5.

just incase you guys forgot.

well. no comment about this chapter. :)  you will get all your answers soon.

STAY FRUITY! X